The feedback

Its been close to 3 weeks since i last posted.I been busy and well i am tired both physcially and mentally.

Cutting long story short,I will get zero for my GMAPS paper.I did study and well i guess its not a matter of knowing how to use the stuff you know,its knowing how to apply it well and knowing what the question wants.I would have to get an A for both my assignment and Exam to even pass.
Thats one obstacle.

Another bomb was when the same day I took the GMAPS paper,I recieved news that my assignment for OOGP was unsubmitted.My blood really....ran cold as I already screwed up one subject,I cant afford to screw up another one.So I verified this and consulted with a few people on what to do.I sent an email to my teacher,which I think he is on vacation.So after 3 days of waiting,I sent another email to the supposed teacher who was grading the assignment.Soon enough he replied and requested the assignment to be sent via email.Now you must be wonderinf,what is the big deal now.

The big deal is that I already deleted the files containing all my assignment stuff.So i got nothing.I have to start over again.

So within 24hrs I had to come up with a 2 new set of codes and a report.Luckily enough my code was similar to a friends so I borrowed his codes for reference and for some reason there was a beta version of my code somewhere.

First time I coded something faster than I play dota lol.In the end I did submit and he replied it was recieved,so thats another thing out of the way.

Currently my mind is tired and my spirit is low.Its hard to kid yourself and tell yourself that you can do it and perserve etc.Thats how I get through tough times.Keep telling yourself that its not that bad and just perserve and soon enough it will blow over.But sometimes I cant help but to think God is dropping hints like this isnt your thing and you should just give up.

In any case happy news now.My good friend Rauf is getting married on the april of 2010.I am happy for him and made me think its so fast that time passed.It was only like 7 months ago that we last saw each other and he's already progressing in life by alot.He's 24 btw.He has a decent technician job at some hotel.My other friend Faizal TZM is also there.Jufree by now would be in NS.Its funny that you only miss the good times only when it has really passed or you no longer see the person.I guess my time in ITE wasnt a waste afterall and it did help unjade my eyes to certain things.

Seen 1 of faithys cosplay pic.Cant say thats her best.Maybe its because she was suppose to be a character that I dislike lol.I couldnt be there in person as I am finacially strapped due to the holidays.

I am now left with only 1 week of holidays.Sigh

Oh I recently come across a new drama series burn notice.Its quite nice.About a spy out of a job and using his skills for random jobs lol.The myth about using compressed air to break a lock is true.

Currently I am reading the Yatsuugin Ninja scrolls.Its the sequel to Basilisk.The only thing that I have a gripe about is its female versus male now.And the female's ages is 15 at most and the male is the most sadistic lots you will ever see in any manga besides majin tantei neuro.What I like is despite the female not having ninja skills or powers,they somehow manage to kill 1 of the seven male ninjas,I only read up to that cause they only translated up to that.But stiil,I prefer Basilisk.It reminds me of why I like Rurouni Kenshin.

I havnt seen any anime as........unless they animate fairy tale,i cant be bothered to watch anything now.

Lastly,Dawn of wat II will be out febuary next year.Cant wait.I will buy it and toss dota oneside lol.

METAL BOXES

When I first started blogging about 3 years ago,I didnt think it would last this long.
I guess its a sort of autobiography of myself as I tend to forget some of the precious moments of my life.

I thought I was a weird person to begin with.But turns out there are even more weird people out there(Not meaning it in a bad way).Why they decide to have a so called split persona is beyond me.And the disorder of having split personalities is still being debated whether is a legit medical condition.

This week is assignment week as every subject for some reason decided to have the deadline on the same week..- -;;I managed to barely scrap through OOGP and IDES was okay.OOGP had to have some help but the question 2 I could do most of the stuff so I guess thats a redeeming point.
Only left CMSK which I have no idea what I am suppose to do and CMSY.

Father have been having bad coughs lately and sometimes he gets nausea cause of it.I hope its nothing serious.His medical report was slightly okay.My hope is that both my parents atleast gets to enjoy life alittle before their batteries run out.

I think age has a factor in watching anime.I say this cause I can no longer even stand to watch 1)moe
2) loli
3)tsundere types
4)combination of 1,2,3
5)Overexaggearated actions being used alot
6)mindless
I shot down every show my otaku-loli friend gave and even challenge his concept of what is a loli.
I think I was where he is now 2 years ago where I thought Tsubasa Chronicles is the saddest thing ever and love was some kind of force and would watch anything.

But I guess I wisen up and learnt that there is no such thing as love.The french created the word to mask the primal emotion of lust and catch the prey.(Learnt this from watching Reaper lol).

Sadly enough my choices have gone down to 2,Kurozuka and Casshern Sins.Dont plan to continue Toradora as well,I lost interest.DUN DUN DUN

Recently I read Basilisk as I heard it was good.It wasnt only good.Its what ninjas should be like.
Ninja techniques arent killing tools,they just help you achieve it.The sword still is in play.
Ninjas are merciless.
They are suicidal lol.
The ending is quite sad though as Genmonosuke didnt get to see Oboro before she died.I liked Oboro cause she stood her ground despite her clan kept pressuring her to kill Genmonosuke.
Tenzen is a bastard though lol.

Guze no Tomogara

I am a vampire/zombie.....literally.

During the day,the rate i take in audio information is so slow,i usually misinterpret what people are saying lol.
And everyday after coming home from school,I go to sleep until 12pm where i roam the internet and go back to sleep at 3-5am.

By the way,was pleasantly surprised that someone I know made it through to October intake,which was Hermi.Although he's an engineering course,knowing someone is on the same level as me does makes me feel better.

Another surprise was although my GPA is 2.55,I am in the top 10 of my class.Believe me,the first thing I was was,"sure or not" lol.

The first real hurdle is OOGP assignment which I sort of 1/8 completed.The other half of the assignment is pretty........doable just that I have no idea how to put it down into code and it took 4 brains to even come up with the interface...- -;;

Oh,my elder sister,her husband and her child is staying with me for a temporary 2 weeks.I admit at the beginning i did object to it,but I guess my forgiving nature just gave way.They even somehow fixed my internet/tv problem.

DMC is too short,they should make more.I need more RAPE.
Getting lazy to watch Toradora cause its starting to get more and more...i dont know what the word.
Kurozuka is getting awesome,and still pretty confusing.
Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae episode 5 is plausible,just that its stupid..- -;;

Been reading another 2 mangas.
One is Skyhigh,which is something like hell girl,only more fair.
The other is Jackals which is like black cat only more gorey-er.

I am finding more and more than I absolutely cant stand moe.I prefer real people.
Evidence is when my friend was watching kannagi and rosario vampire and i keep going"That is so annoying man" and their whines and tsudere-ness kept me twitching to close the video player.

So who'se here with me?

Finally

Currently having alot of stuff to deal with and my timetable is the most evil one concocted ever.

Today I volunteered to go basically tell stories to kids.Didnt know TP hostel had a kindergarden in it.
Was a very fun experience.The kids were very active and kept interupting my story lol.So I just went along what they were trying to tell me.I even had an encore lol.I had difficulty trying to explain the emotion shocked though.

Its times like this that reminds me that as you grow up and know more things,the harder it is to find what really makes you happy and you have to constanly worry where you will be a few years down the road.
This brings me to another incident.I think he's my senior of my same course and he was explaning that our course is the worse one in IT cause no one can fix what is the prevalent problem which I dont understand what it actually was.Based on his claims and views,I say he's alittle conceited,biased and sore as it sounds very personal and logically thinking,how else are you gonna teach a gaming course?lol.From my understanding of a company,although you are influential,you cant go around telling people to screw TP over cause its not beneficial to the company,that is even they give you the time of their day and its even more worse since he uttered..

"Microsoft"

The ultimate evil lol.

I am increasingly getting lethargic and tired.I guess its due to sleeping less than 8 hrs each day.I cant help it cause its a habit and if i try to sleep early,I may end up not being able to sleep anyway.

A classmate in my class has been telling people to go buy dead space.He mentioned it to me and I said I will think about it.He just shot pussy at me...- -;;.Cant be blamed as he probably never played the original slient hill or F.E.A.R before.I can assure you,slient hill will make you not want to advance from the spot you are standing in the game lol.Still get the creeps from those blue ghost like babies.....><.

recently uncovered another gem,DMC or Detroit Metal City.Came across this after there were some pictures of it over 4chan and a classmate was talking about it.I never though someone could take a music genre like death metal and make it funny without knowing a thing about metal.

The recent episodes of casshern was great although it seems he gets a little emo-ey every now and then.But then again,you caused the world to be reduced to nothing,cant be caring about only rainbows and butterflys right.

toradora is nice,although my fear is slowly coming true....cmon man,atleast make a love anime that the leads dont fall for each other.

Kurozuka is still alittle hard to understand due to its not specifying which is a flashback and no background info.Its still a great show though.Lots of blood.Khorne would be pleased.

Swampped

This term is officially hell term for me as the learning curb has been kicked up a notched and i must atleast focus and study the stuff that i am learning as they are heavy as hell.I am starting to get scared that I am fall behind as even though I learn fast,technical stuff like maths,I take a longer time to fully understand.I do have second thoughts from time to time like I should have went to an engineering course instead of this one.It is hard and sometimes convicing yourself that you can do it wears you down.

My fridays are no longer free as CDS have taken its place and i am now down to two rest days.
My CDS is The Powerful Art of Storytelling,which alot of people seem to underestimate...- -;;
Frequent puns are "so the whole time are you just going to tell stories?"
Yeah fits me well as I am a human sound effect machine lol.

I would have to cut down on my lazy-ness i guess,its a hard habit to kick actually lol.I miss waking up at 3pm everyday and just lazy infront of the tv until night comes.

My aunt have decided to cut her losses and close down the stall in the coming months as they are taking in great losses each month.Its a pity though as its quite interesting to have someone you know in the food business.The main reasons the stall isnt making money is because
-Bad location,the stall is hidden at a corner
-Bad fengshui,the stall is beside the toliet
-Bad timing-they opened a few weeks before the fasting month so they couldnt make enough to tide them over
An alternative is that they operate in the morning while someone else operate at night.I just suggested they find a factory canteen.

Jufree asked some questions about the ps3 as he plans to buy one soon.Even though I own one,i didnt really tell him to go buy it as my taste is different from him.Right now the market is filled with FPSes which will entertain the normal user.I am just pissed at the lack of solid rpgs for the PS3.I have already lost faith in Square-enix as for the pass 4 years,all they did was milk the FF7 series..- -;;
What about threads of fate or brave fencer musashi?Those were the classics fans ACTUALLY
want to be remade or a sequel.

October is truly the magical month for anime as I found another gem.Kurozuka.I loved the first episode.Nice clean bloody fights and kuromitsu held her severed arm with her mouth and finishing off someone with the other was strangely gratifiying.The second episode was confusing as it didnt flow nicely and one couldnt tell which is a flashback.

Seethers are a nice band.Listen to fake it and rise above this truly hits home to those who have fallen from grace and is struggling to get back up.

head feels like water flowing like a wave on a sunday

I am still sort of sick when typing all this.

I did mean to go on saturday.But unfortunately I feel sick on friday onwards and its the weirdess sick kind of sick that I had.

Friday knight I feel weak so I took febs and went to sleep.Couldnt sleep the whole night.After the sleep effect of the pills wore off my head was like a radio station.

Before I go on,I got this weird sort of insommia.If I think alot before I sleep,my mind end up going on and on while my body sleep.They are like seperate entities so to speak.Its like my eyes are asleep and my body is still,yet I can still think lol.

The morning that I was suppose to go,my sister noticed my hands were hot and so was my forehead and neck.Funny thing was....it didnt felt hot to me.I touched my forehead a few times but it felt normal to me.Tried to get a thermometer.......but since the government has stop issuing free ones,cant get one.So i just doused my head with cold water which on me head....didnt feel very cold...lol.Anyways had to clean the house so loki soldiered on until mother called and got me to the doctor.

I think the doctor was at a loss lol.So he just gave me something for sorethroat,blocked nose and cant remember the other one.

I only went to sleep at 1am cause of other house work and someone came.
The next day,my throat feels like there are knives in them..- -;;

My holiday now is down to 7 days....which I dont want it to end cause I want to slack forever.The next term would be more evil and I just hope I got enough brains to pull it together and pull my gpa up slowly bit by bit.My gpa is 2.55,so if i do good the next term,it should be about 2.81 maybe?.Oh and that gpa isnt a good gpa - -;;.It was a miracle that I passed maths with a D+ grade.I guess the next term I got to study more and keep games/doujin/funny material at bay.

Oh and the parternal units have made up which is good.

Read a classmate's blog and he mentioned he isnt typing what he feels into his blog cause he knows if that person reads it,she would be hurt.

Hmmmmmmm,dont tell her you got a blog in the first place?(*crowds laugh*)

and how come my blog isnt on the class blog.Maybe its too haiku-ish for the normal person

What you read here is as real to what I feel and experience as it gets although I cant blog some stuff cause I dont know how to put it to words or too irrelevant to mention.
And no I still got no girl in my heart.



There was 1 anime that drew my attention by just looking at it.Thats Casshern Sins.
The op song is cool but the opening cinematics explain nothing lol.From what I gather,its a remake from the 70s version and is different from the live action movie version.Even saying his name is addicting.

Another one that I anticipated was toradora.I guessed it turned out good except its going way faster.They completed 11 chapters of the manga in 2 eps and they cut out the dance your way to the seat part.I hope for one thing though.That taiga and ryuuji dont end up with each other but their targeted pair instead.Cause if that happens,it would be way to cheesy and cliche for me.The way things are looking though,its doesnt bode well for me lol.


Seriously people,go watch the soup on youtube.For some reason singapore cant get that show on E! entertainment channel.He makes fun of other shows and the celebirty culture.

Again

Just when you thought things are getting better,the dude up there slams the brakes and your life grinds to a halt again.

This by far is the worst hari raya ever.Period.The first day,we didnt go anywhere.Parents are fighting again.Mostly cause of my father's indecisive-ness.The second day,well I thought my parents have made up but no.Because we(me,my sister and mother)forgot to ask for forgiveness before we left home,he was pulling a long face as we went out and didnt say anything.My mother got upset and went home half-way through....

- -;;

The next day,father proceeded to lecture me and question my religion etc....- -;;
Its not that I didnt want to ask for forgiveness,which was the tradition of hari raya.Its that the whole"not celebrate it thing" in the first place got me confused on what I should do and my parents fighting didnt help me.My father also apparently hasnt forgiven me over the driving incident as well.The weekends were very long for me as he was at home and it felt like a ticking time bomb.I cant even really sleep in peace.

I think I may have to accept the reality that my parents arent going to last long together.

Also got me thinking that if i got married one day,will i be like this?I certainly hope not.

Verdandi sent me a the yearly message of asking me to go on the yearly hari raya outing.I dont know how to respond to that exactly.

Havnt been online cause mother is sleeping outside and I am not comfortable using the com with someone beside me lol.

Someone please send me some girls or something cause I could use some company lol.

Another road

In the dimness that shrouds.....
One line simply pierces through the darkness and brings on the light

Jigoku Shojo Mitsuganae

Hell yeah man lol.

I admit I was skeptical that they couldnt and shouldnt do a third season.But I guess they found a way to pull it off.Ai seems to still play a role,but I dont know...she is supposed to be dead dead.

Went to Johore for the weekends.Parental units are not at war so all is good in the world.
Bought 2 t-shirts.And I never thought I would buy a striped T-shirt....
After being driven around in taxi's there and looking at the road conditions.I say you got to be quite skilled to drive there.Many potholes,people dont give signals,cut through lanes like being chased by cops.I hope in future I dont drive there...- -;;

I missed the F1 thing.I am quite a fan of the F1,just that I dont fancy the whole race around the same lap for 90 rounds kinda thing.Been following it since I was a kid since they cancelled monster trucks on tv lol.Am a fan of Michael schmumacher and now a fan of lewis hamilton and kimi raikonen.It takes alot of skill to drive fast and handle the car well.


Been listening to rev theory.Hell yeah is great.







Somewhere on the internet,Loki converses....

Judging from the amout of zerozaku etc etc etc,I would guess that Code Grass has ended?
Yeah it has ended dude,where have you been?
Err...its not my cup of tea and I dont acknowledge its existance?
lol then somethings wrong wif u dude since many do

well the main reason i dont like mainstream stuff is that,usually it tends to become something that i hate.The propaganda machine.Fans would rave why its the best thing since sliced bread.Thats why I hate the melancoly of Suzumiya haruhi.It was good.Fans turn it into....- -;;
Haruhi-ism etc.

Yet again

Been roaming around for a nice blog skin,found one...but ultimately too lazy to make the transition.

Lol everyone has atleast changed their skins.Even weirder is Zafirah who changed the add of her blog like 6 times this year before finally moving on to live journal.

5 more days and fasting would end.The most challeging thing for me is to control sleep and thirsty-ness lol.But its not a great time for mother cause she works and have to prepare pre-dawn eating stuff.As a result she is more cranky than usual.My father is no better and both have gotten into another cold war...again.Thats like the 3rd time this month alone.

Mother have ranted on how she wished her elder brother let her drown in the past instead letting her live and suffer all this torture.She added on about how all malay husbands are all good for nothing but getting angry and insensitive to their wives(really,not kidding here)examples are my auntie and my auntie's daugther.She proceeded to push my buttons on how other my cousin defended his mother and that i wasnt doing the same.I just kept quiet.I did not want any part of this thing as well,i dont like to take sides as in the end,both parties stand to lose.She eventually snapped out of it.She is currently now down with the flu and father not talking to her.- -;;
At this point,I guess I am the only one sane in the family.

Another 5 days,would be hari raya also.But for my house,it isnt.Due to my actions of my elder sister,my parents have been disheartened to celebrate it this year.Although I can tell they are wavering about that decision but alas,nothing can be done.

The last five post has been filled with unhappy stuff,lol.I wonder how long before all of this tides over.Even I,cant stay positive forever.

Its at this time that I feel truly alone.

Nah I havnt gone emo lol,just well bothered and down

Lets dance the mariachi

The holidays.
It does your brain and body bad.
Brain go mushy and body go lazy.

Danish has got to be the smartest 2 year old kid i know.For a two year old,he can already
-know people's names
-imitate people's actions
-recognize stuff
-can say what he thinks(not entirely or in full sentences)
He's fun to play with,but the kid runs around like an energizer battery and likes to go out for walks.He also grown heavier haha.His father still scares me though ^^;;

Recently I watched a show on Discovery travel and living,and the host went to japan to eat the world's most expensive steak,the Kobe Steak.Along the way he went into a Maid cafe.After watching the maid cafe and what they do inside,lol made me think how much of non anime fan i am.They play games like simon says and etc.The girls there also were like told to be extra cute.
Now I realised,how much of a non-non anime fan I am lol.I dont like stuff like moe.I dont follow main stream titles and I am still scared of cosplayers ^^;;.I think I would fear faithy more now than ever lol.

Yuna Ito's newest single "Miss you" is the perfect song for valentine's day in my opinion.Her song breeziin is catchy and will have you singing along.Too bad this singer isnt well recognized here despite one of the Superband contestants using her song,"Truth".She was 6th in the most princess-like and best suited for bridal wear lol.

sorry short.Cause i havnt been going out of the house alot due to fasting month.
Loki is tha Lazys

More Le sigh

After the circuit lesson on thursday,It was very clear to me.

I had no chance in hell of even passing the test.

So I had to make the decision of postponing the test.The uncle didnt tell me to prepare another $175 for car rental anyway and I didnt have the money.

This didnt set well with my father at all.My mother told him about this over the phone.And when he came home,he just said"All his hopes has been dashed" and didnt even eat dinner.

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Yeah his rather upset by this change.He hasnt spoken to me in a while.Alot less than usual.
Believe me,if I even had a small chance to pass the test,I would have tried.But it was simply impossible.The uncle even said even more terrible stuff like"You better not take the test ah you,waste money."I dont know.It was just my second lesson(circuit wise) there.I now know how Rezza manage to get so many demerit points.I think I am going to find another instructor to revise what I have learnt.My problem areas seem to be just parking and being more alert.

My exam results were.....less than stelllar.I got Bs,and alot of Cs and a D for math.The only positive thing is that I dont have to retake my maths paper(I think).And my GPA is now 2.55 and I tell you,GPAs are the hardest thing in the world to raise when it has gone down.

And yes,Loki feels like he has to bang his head against something like titanium.Maybe adamantium.

Overall,This year sucks for me.I just want this year to finish quickly.I feel that I am the only sane one in the family or maybe Insane beyond reason lol.

My elder sister been trying to patch up with my mother.I knew my mother would forgive her in time as all mothers forgive their children no matter what they do.My father,I think is afraid to do so as he doesnt want to get sucker-ed in for another dissappointment i think.

Oh yeah,Zero for asked my address.Dont know what its for(cant remember).Hope she doesnt get it wrong like the last time.

There been so much depressing things this month..- -;;,I just wish for something good to happen.

Stressed

Today had my first lesson in the ubi circuit.....


It didnt go down so well.It was difficult to focus on what to do cause I was at a loss and I cant remember exactly what I am supposed to do,including my left and right - -;;.It doesnt help also that the uncle keep railing at me what to do.I am fasting too btw so my reaction and memory would be alot weaker.I cant think also with people breathing down on me.My head felt like an over-heated CPU.

And then he said

"You're the worst.You drive confirm accident.Dangerous"

- -;;....that isnt exactly the thing i need with my test just 2 days away.And now I am stressed like I never been stressed before.Not even the O levels.I dont think I can pass my TP test on friday.....I got no confidence.I drive too slow and yet still makes mistakes...amatuer,first day learn driving mistakes.Now I know why some people give up driving entirely after their first try.I have another two lessons,gonna see how tomorrow goes.....le sigh
If you are thinking of learning driving,think twice.....IT WILL SCAR YOU FOR LIFE lol.


The release of my exam results does not help me either as I can honestly believe that I failed my maths and I probably must take the Supplementary paper next week.Well there goes my daily game room privilages.


In times like this,even Loki can get down and currently feels like smashing his head against something.I guess thats why I blog in the first place.Cause there is no one for me to talk to about all this things in the first place and no girlfriend to vent/throw stuff at lol.

Recently heard an unerving tale about a close shave my father had at work.There was an explosion and something blocked the debris from the explosion,that was in front of him.My father had a fair share of accidents throughout the years,like leg fracture and finger fracture.Kinda makes me regret pursueing higher education and not work to help support family.


Over the years,my father's temper has caused much misunderstadings and problems.And over the years,I guess my mother is starting to feel tired putting up with it.I can understand that she feels under-appreciated and everyone just dump chores on her.And recently my father have been flaring up often and there will be cold wars for a period of time between my father and mother.I dont like this but,I cant really do anything about it.I figure they have about another 2-3 years together maybe.


The main cause of it is the cause of every working class citizen out there,Money.The plan was my elder sister was to support the family now and my parents can take it easy.But thats not the case.The lack of money causes overworked parents,which flare up alot and dont communicate.

wow

Wow,am surprised this year that no wishes for me this year?lol I must be seriously pathetic..- -;;

In any case,no presents this year again cause there has been an increased number of driving lessons due to my TP test being just next week.Atleast I got cake,although I made no wish.
On the topic of presents......well in my life I hardly got any from friends cause I guess I am not close enough or matter enough in their life to get one.One of the nicer ones I got was a few years back,the card Zero gave me.That was the nicest present I got from a friend.My aunt no longer gives stuff cause I guess she no longer knows me well and usually gives me money.

Jufree msged me today,wishing about the fasting season and got into a small chat.Found out he is working at DHL at tanjong pagar and would be enlisting to NS at the end of the year.He's one of the guys that to me knows what is important in life and is working hard to achieve it.

Only in hardship,will you ever discover what is important and that will drive you to go for greater things.

Another guy was Faizal TZM.TZM is the name of a motorcycle.He works two odd jobs and still goes to school,although not so often.He is often tired when I see him.Listening to his stories,he used to race and drink,but came to his senses and is now supporting his family.He even has scars over his arms.What was cool was his still took it easy.

And then I come to poly,and I am re-exposed to young minds who worry about nothing other than exams and how much their life sucks.- -;;

I guess once you gone to the lowest of low,the highest peak doesnt seem so bright after all.

I recently bought Siren:New Translation and it is seriously,a hard game.Its hard due to
1)The zombies/Shibitos dont die....they just get up about a few minutes later and they will hunt you down with weapons.
2)It is quite dark to see stuff sometimes
3)You will die if you dont have a weapon.The chapters where you play as a Kid sucks therefore.
What was cool was there is a blog connected to the game.Its for promotional purposes as its not updated at all.The game is scary as heck as usually its hard to spot shibitos and the not dying thing.

I realise that in dota,my skills are lower than the AIs...and they are stupid to begin with.I am thinking of stop playing it as I cant get any better.A recent game against a friend revealed just that.
Come to think of it,I was never good in any online game.....maybe Dawn of War but I got no one to really go against.

Continuation of a dream

At long last,its holiday for me.No more events to help out or exams which depressed the hell out of me.I have no idea what i will be doing during the holidays,but i think it would involve a heck lot of doing useless things and maybe continue my story after about a 3 months hiatus.And also its the fasting month so I cant be "seeing" evil things....- -;;

I realized the story that i write would be something like the book in the movie "The number 23"(it was an okay movie,just lacked suspense in the right places).It will only be known to me and only I will know what if could have been and of its existence.Of course,I would not give up on it.I would just continue to write,maybe it will ease my soul or something.

To be frank,MGS4 is the last game i bought and that was like 3 months ago and I am dying of boredom.I do want to buy Siren:Blood curse but again,cash is an issue.What I notice so far,the PS3 or rather,consoles of this generation are sorely lacking good RPG games or adventure games for that matter.I compared this to Brave fencer Musashi,that I am replaying using an emulator on my laptop.People just dont make games like that anymore I guess.

I recently visited an ex-ITE classmate of mine's blog,and she seems to be in a dilemma.I havnt really understood her situation but seems quite dire.I wanted to talk further to find out more but yeah she's busy and such.My exam papers,cant say I would do well for them.I think I may fail the maths paper,until now I dare not check whether or not I answered the questions right and accumulated enough marks to pass.I admit,I did played more than practice and study so its my own fault that it has come to this.

oh look,peanuts*goes over and eats peanuts*

My TP driving test is about 2 weeks away,and I still havnt finished learning all the lessons and revised.The uncle is fully booked so its harder.I have two lessons with him next week,although its unclear how long each lesson would take.I assume if would be more than 2 hours so I asked in advance the parental unit to set aside atleast $100.Cant say that I am confident to pass,but I think I drive good enough.







I came across this manga series called Tora Dora.And sure enough,I like it.....alot.When it comes to anime or manga,I am rather picky.I will not choose mainstream titles as usually they are popular for nothing or destined to have fillers every 3 episodes.Thats why when lets say my classmates discuss about whether or not akaitsuuki will capture naruto or whether lenalee would grow a ponytail again or lelouch would finally realize that he is an emo glam boy,my screensaver wallpaper would pop up on my face.Its even more worse when guys talk about some new ecchi anime.....which I have no interest at all.
Its to the point where I actually question myself if I am an anime fan at all lol.

Back to Tora Dora,its about a dude who have menacing eyes and people normally mistake him for a gangster.Its the start of a new term(isnt it always the start of a new term..- -;;) and he bumps into the legendary "palmtop tiger",Taiga Aisaka.Fast forward alittle,they realise they like each other's best friend and work together on their mission of happiness.I think Syam can relate to this lol.I really like Taiga cause she's like shana in a way(fiesty,short tempered) but at the same time she is human(realizes her mistakes,although not admitting it)

Haha,I hope I find this kind of girl.My life would be more fun then.

Also reading High School of the dead which is...meh okay.Quite philosophical and tend to focus on gore and action scenes alot before giving you a moral conudrum of sorts.

Finished Fairy tail.They must animate this series.Erza the titania is too cool.

Again

In any case,like I told my mother,"Thats one chapter of life that has closed."
She has now moved on and hope the best for her.

If you are wondering,Yes I have survived the first onslaught of assignments.Although,it wasnt exactly the way I would liked it to be.
It was harder to do stuff when you are sick.I was down with the flu for 2 weeks and had to stay up every other night to finish the assignments.


My storyboard assignment...well was okay,i think.The video was iffy at best and has no sound at all.My PRSP or coding assigment...I had to resort to getting the codes from someone else as I had practically only 1 day left.Spent the remaining time making it look like its from me and not from someone else.

WDS or web site was easier as my layout was simple,just that it lacked pictures and I just talked rubbish during the presentation lol.

The only thing left is my exams.I have 2 papers.Maths and Introduction to computer games.Maths...well I must pass so umm...wish me luck?lol.

So far my grades are above average at best.I dont aim to be on the director's list as I know my limits and I dont want to be on his beck and call.I know Damien lives for that.I dont.I actually got something called LIFE...although it aint much.

My mother has been working at my aunt's stall and it seems to be picking up.Although its strange that the roti prata there is in high demand and the customers there are regulars.She been complaining about hand pains.I think age is catching up on her.The same goes for my father as recently he spent a few hours at General Hospital for observation.I know that he has gastiric.He has an appointment coming up,hope it isnt anything too serious.

Another strange thing is that.What has happen to Zero and Faithy?They seem to have dissappeared and not online or on msn.I guess they are very busy with their lives or busy with O levels(Are they even sec 4 0_O?).Either that they have been taken in by the inquisition lol.

Dont know how this oct intake works but hope syam gets in.Atleast wont be so well alone.Yeah there is izzati,min,suhendi and bella(- -;;).But they are of different course type(design and enginneering).I am not that comfortable with others cause..well i dont know,I am not of the same level as they are?Knowing that they are ahead and farther in life,sort of dappens my spirit.

Been wanting to watch this TV series called "Dexter".Its about this detective who uses his job to find murderers and kill them himself.Its already in the second season and the FBI is on his tail.Its like deathnote only minus the death by name lol.

Finished Libary war.Its a good anime and sort of reminds us what we take for granted,that is freedom.The people demand a sequel,but I dont see how it can even get made.And now I am watching Nabari No ou....which is has a number of guys and sort of leaning into......- -;; which I hope not cause its pretty good.What I like is that the lead character,although has the power,isnt spamming his power....okay its just cause he cant use it and cant be bothered to use it.His charm and devilish ways are downright evil.He is a guy,who can throw a guy into confusion by just acting cute lol.

The king has returned

After along hiatus due to reason already told.

The void dragon/Loki hath returned!

Rejoice in the coming oblivion!!!

Okay now back to the situation at hand.It seems to have calmed down.Alot has happen but parents manage to come up with a solution on what to do with elder sister.She will be kicked out on national day and from then on,it will be official that my parents disown her.

As a result of this incident,my parents have declared that they wont be celebrating Hari Raya this year,so they wont be visiting friends etc and its closed house this year.So comrades of Loki,pass on that this year Loki wont be following nor you be visiting.

On a lighter side,my aunt finally open shop and my mother is working with her.Its pretty cool to own a business of your own,although there is alot of kinks you must work out yourself.LOL it does come with an interesting story though.The story revolves around the previous owner and her black magic prata man.Apparently the prata maker used black magic to make the prata either very delicious or attract people there for no reason.Evidence of this is the scatter-ation off thailand coins all over the shop.So my aunt called the equvilant of a priest of my religion(an Ustad) to so called exorcise the shop.And my aunts and uncles claim they say all sorts of apparations come out..........


I am on the verge of insanity.You would be too.Just see what I must do in the coming 4 weeks.
1)INCG presentation/Exam
2)WDS website/presentation
3)PRSP test/presentation/Code submission
4)Storyboard submission/movie
5)Maths Exam

In other words....I AM F***ED.

how in the red seas??!!

Been sleeping less the pass week due to two things

1)MGS4

2)PRSP assignment

BAD combination considering one is personally important while the other is DO OR DIE!!!!!
I managed to do 2 out of 5 questions.I cant come up with the program for question 3 and 4.Question 3 requires a certain math formula which I dont know and question 4 is well.....umm dnt know how to use string nested.
Wonder how the others are coping with all of this.Cant be better off than me though lol.Yes i cant think any deeper lol

MGS4 hath been bought.
And it is the awesome.
Although it is slightly on the long side with the explanation and cutscenes,but thats to be expected as it is snake's final chapter.
Gotta say though,Hideo Kojima really does know how to really screw a guy's fate from worse to you must die tomorrow lol.
Have defeated 2 Beauty and the Beast units...
...yeah the girls was hot lol,although alittle psycho.
Their stories are quite realistic though.

The lunch box idea would work really well....



If I actually remembered to make the lunch before going to school lol.


The state at home has now risen to the worse possible scenario.
My elder sister has committed the expected but didnt realise she was that stupid.
And now my mother is talking about being stressed and maybe jumping of buildings(not joking)
As usual,it doesnt concern me so,I just dont care about it.Thing would have been alot better if my sister was alot like other people's sister,one that is actually responsible for the family and acutally care about siblings,but I get no such luck.
Now parents is scrambling to get to a solution as soon as possible.
They have imparted me with a promise
That if they were dying or sick,not to let my sister know or attend or see them.

Again from the top

As promised another GFX...which isnt exactly one considering I didnt do much.Was trying to make a DMC like logo.The picture used is actually Lunamaria with her butt facing you lol.




Its been 4 weeks.......
AND STILL NO MGS4 FOR LOKI...- -;;

In any case,just got back some of the test results and umm..hmm.Seems I have slipped back into sucking at maths.I can do maths and such,but most of the time I required something to refer to as I cant remember how to do it.Good thing though I just passed by 2 marks.Bad thing is that I have been scheduled for some coaching classes...- -;;.....INCG I did okay so no worries there.Only down to PRSP and WDS test results.

I have resign myself to fate,a fate that dictates I cant draw to save my life.The next best thing is 3D modelling..which well I may suck at as well.LOL.

It seems Blizzard is trying to do an ultimate seal of doom on other companies by annoucing Diablo 3,with Starcraft 2 still in development and could see it being release early next year.Now I am by no means a fan of either game or the company itself.But hearing how people are getting excited over it is enough to make me laugh.It is because all the company is doing is reviving old games and put some fancy new graphics and some trinkets here and there.


Oh and I just discovered a manga that totally rocked.
Its called Fairy tale.Same author as the one who did Rave.So expect women with huge........and whacky characters.The lead guy,the lead girl and ice dude look like Haru,Elie and Musica respectively.Plue is even in it as an Astral Spirit.But one character that totally got my attention is

Erza the titania

She is made of win and awesomeness.

The beast

I am now currently trying to get a project going.
Its project"LEgaCY".Its based on my story,LEgaCY and people contribute Ideas,drawings(PLZ!) and well help me correct stuff if there something wrong there.I have found an alternative to blogspot which is Wordpress,and I dont know how to use it..- -;;.IN anycase I will upload all my current chapters there all this week,seeing that I am not that busy..I think.

In anycase to justify the apparent grammatical errors,you cant exactly blame me cause I wrote it with ideas streaming in and I finished English about 3 years ago so my standard have dropped.

Now on to the current affairs.School would be starting today,the return to normal life.
If I had my way,I would like to slack all day and wonder what to do today.
I came up with a system to help save money,which is....THE LUNCH BOX.
I got to do my bit to help the family,so...
Oh yeah been wondering.
You know in anime,the girls have lunch boxes right?Are they hot or cold?Cause eating cold food is alittle uncomfortable.

I had some success in making Spaghetti Cabornara. Its just creamy white sauce with the usual noodles.Although I did make some mistakes.
The pasta was...undercooked and was hard and chewy.
The meat pieces was alittle on the raw side..-^^;;.
One the plus side though,the sauce was good,surprised that it only took 3 ingredients...

Someone mentioned to me that in all of my blog posts,I talk about the apparent lack of money and money situation that I am in.
Well I am by definition a poor kid.And I am not going to pretend the money situation isnt there and as if it doesnt concern me cause its my parent's problem.

Driving wise.Its getting more and more fun.Learn strobing(?) and checking of blindspots,which I errr..dont usually do hehehe ^^;;.Finally learn how to properly control the clutch..it was due to my feet postioned wrong lol.My goal is to pass before Hari Raya.Maybe I can make it after all.




MGS4....I NEED IT...><.......Someone who has a copy...PLEASE LEND ME!!!!!!!!!Must defeat the bosses....which they will turn back to normal girls....WITH SLIME.....XD lol.

Dude

First off,A publice service Annoucement
-Please Ignore weird offline msgs that you may have recieved from me as its not me who sent it and I am usually offline at that time.
The prime suspects from who and what I consulted is

Either a virus/worm-Thats currently being system scanned by another scanner and would be done in a few hours.

Syam proposed a System restore..which is alittle drastic.Wont resort to that even though the problem still persist as its not that big of a deal.


A hack from a spam site,Says Farid.....I have now changed my password...maybe that helps.



And as promised,I have done a new GFX.Although...I cant use it to replace the shana pic which I am using now on the blogskin....as its larger..- -;;.The pic would "Spill" into the words and thus making it unreadable.So here it is,enjoy.
http://i69.photobucket.com/albums/i69/loki_hafiz/Ino.jpg
Its not so detailed due to my lack of brushes and well her skins is alittle bright on my laptop but looks just nice on a normal screen.I do not know how to adjust the brightness level of my laptop...- -;;
I am now thinking of doing another one...the next one could be alittle more on the ecchi scale....

My Mother did not continue working at the changi Airport as the rumours turn out to be true.That the boss is cutting off $5 out of the total hours that she worked.Put it simply
my mother worked 9hrs and its $5 per hour.Total would be $45.The boss would only give $40 due to she cant give unwhole numbers like $45.So again its buying the straits time and berita harian for my mother again lol.

This year,I got to say,it sucks.The reason?Money is in way shortage this year than previous years.Its all because I entered poly and poly takes up a huge amout of money that my parents can bearly sustain with my father's salary alone.Even I did not anticipate entering poly would take such a huge amount of money.I am trying to find a job but poly rules are more strict and its hard to find a job to fit in the hours.I already come to a conclusion that IT schools are more strict than Engineering schools for some apparent reason.I guess its some universal law.Thank god though Mendaki is supporting me as the school fees are reduced from $2k to a $119 and its paid through a loan that I took out from DBS,going to check with the bank to see if it goes well.

This of course,adds more weigh on to my shoulders as this is something that I CANNOT FAIL OR GIVE UP HALF-WAY.There are dire consequences to be had if I fail.......Starting to think maybe taking up JC 3 years ago was a better option.

Checked with a few game shops and so far,only one has MGS4.It costs about $84.....which will again take a long time to save...DAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WANT IT NOWZ.....><.
My PSP earphones are missing...great.More stuff that needs to be bought when you dont actually have money..- -;;

I cant sell anymore games as,well I dont want my game libary to shrink down to nothing.Even though I dont play it anymore,its sort of nice to see that you have that game.Same thing with your favourite book or CD,where you listened to all the songs or read the book several times and cant bear to part with it.

Oh year,Listen to Hitomi Takahashi.And no she hasnt stop making music.She is just now more low-key.Her latest single "Atashi No machi"is damm good and is the OP of Libary war.Her last album,"Bamboo College" is good,although she seems to have mellowed down alittle.I think you expect her to dish out powerful songs like her debut songs "Bokutachi wa something" but her music is very creative and different.She's the original Rocker chic that existed before Yui and can actually sing .

Watch the soup on youtube.Its a show on channel E but for some reason,they arent showing the show here although its still on going over at the states.Joel Mchale got have the best job in showbiz.Making parodies,making fun of shows and such.
Lastly,read somewhere that she would like Oprah winfery's number,cause she may get free stuff if your her friend.Well I rather be Ellen Degeraness friend as she alot more fun to be around lol.

Beast of harlot

Holidays.
When you are busy,you practically beg for them.
But when it comes,you have no idea what to do with all the free time and is bored.
That is exactly my situation right now.Yeah there is alot of projects and homework and such.
But like any decent student,they are meant to be done last minute.
Poly holidays suck as you only get 2 measly weeks.
Been using most of the time to do....absolutely nothing.

Mother found a job at Changi Airport,working at a food stall.It isnt far from here and the hours,to her seem acceptable.Although she fears she may get cheated of her pay just like I did,but thats highly unlikely.As for me,havnt been avidly finding jobs.Trying to avoid the ones that have to do with food service.Something like 7-11 would be nice but am afraid to work alone and would rather someone apply with me.Heard Syam got a job,just that dont know what job it is.

MGS 4 will be out in about 2 days.Same day as my mother's birthday.And I have no cash for either.Oh yeah,I did what a gamer wouldnt do unless he was desperate for cash.Which is to sell his games.I sold off 2 games.The money I got back wasnt even half of the original value.
Burnout paradise which I bought for $69 only got it for $10!
Kane & Lynch which I bought for $81 only got it for $20..which is quite....not okay.

Had to sell them to buy an uber expensive book to be used in my PRSP test.In the end wasnt enough and my father had to borrow from friends to buy it.Its things like this that I hate alot.I hate the fact that someone else like my parents had to do something like that for my sake.I never brought it up as I know they will just say its for my sake.They also mentioned its up to me in future whether or not I repay them.

My driving lessons is coming along nicely.Have learnt quite a number of things,but the hardest to master for me is clutch control when turning and reversing.Its hard to pay attention to the clutch when you are fixated your attention on turning and reversing.Instructor said I am making good progress.

Working on my next GFX...just dont know what picture to use

Chapter 6 is currently finished and is in the middle of proof-reading.Those interested can ask me for it.Lol pls ask me for it ^^

Coup de'grace

Now have alittle time to update my readers on the ongoings of my life.

Recently heard one of my uncle on my mother's side had passed away.From what I heard,it was sort of a good thing considering from what I heard from my mother and my relatives on how he used to treat people when he was alive,funniest story was one where he challenged my father to a fight.So my Aunt and the remaning siblings somewhat disown him and placed him in a care center seeing that he constantly is drunk and is a danger to himself.From also what I heard,he was also one of my grandmother's favorite sons.

When to my Uncle's Laguna club day,and it was fun,seeing that I played with Danish most of the time^^.He's getting smarter each time we met.I even got wet on his sake - -;;.Pictures would be up soon.

Got back my EZ-link,which forced me to journey to MND,which is damm far.Now,its pointless as the concession pass fare is no longer 27.50,which i enjoyed during ITE.Which got me thinking.
Why is it Poly have to pay full adult fare while ITE can pay student fare although they are both tertiary students?
My hypothesis is this
ITE/JC are goverment funded institutions
Poly are Goverment supported private institutions,something like MDIS..ETC


Just finished PRSP test yesterday and well I think I am able to pass.I even got the first question wrong.Tomorrow would be WDS and it would be harder considering I cant bring a book in.Should be able to pass...I think.
Been trying to study,but I am afraid DOTA keeps calling me.Its the need to pwn people that keeps me going.So far I am about above beginner level.Cant expect to catch up to errant anytime soon as I still dont know some things.Wish this was more like Dawn of War as ranged units can shoot and run...- -;;

I am enjoying Libary War alot.
The heroine gets abused alot lol.
Although the heroine should wear something to define her as a girl sometimes as I could swear she's a dude each time I watch lol.
And Is surprised why people think fighting over books is ridiculous and strange.
To put it simply,Information is power.
You control the flow of information,you can control what you want your citizens to think.
So you can make them mindless militants of your cause without them totally knowing the world outside.
In history,this has taken place in Russia and North Korea.This thing is called the Iron curtain.^^

Come back to me

Recently heard an old muse song that
I never knew.
And damm sick.
You should listen to it,the name of the song is muscle museum.
And yes,the video is damm weird,standard muse lol.


Recently made a banner.First one after a 2 years plus hiatus.It was a request from my little sister lol.It took me longer than usual as I forgot how to do certain things and the short cut keys etc.

















Now to address something that have been bugging me for awhile.
Why would you create a blog.....
....and then put a password so that only people that knows it can read it?
I mean its really pointless considering you put up a blog for people to read in the first place.
What?Afraid people would flame you?Dont want your enemies to spam your tagboard?Afraid or embrassed to post stuff about your life?Then dont post it in the first place and dont put up a tagboard lol.Might as well keep a pink frilly diary that you keep in your back pocket right?

Someone said my blogskin looks gay and girly.Well for one,I was going for cute,and I rather look forward to seeing something cute rather than a green background with black vectors blog which is baseless.Another is that I cant find a decent enough blogskin as they are literally millions out there.

Oh and someone i knew in the past,is what somewhat crossed that I didnt say hi to her when I bumped into her(yeah she even put a "I cant believe a friend wouldnt say hi" on msn)?Lady I bumped into you atleast 2 time before(yes we even looked dead in the eye) and I aint even a least bit crossed.But I have resolved to NOT acknowledge anyone from my secondary school(with a few exceptions).Its a personal preference.I got reason.Respect it.WORD lol

Now on to the heavier side of things.Have spent many sleepless nights on vislit and Am finally glad that its over.Hope storyboarding isnt as intense as this.Havnt been going to PRSP lectures as even If I go,I dont follow what he is talking about.So I just read notes...which I dont XP.Maybe a day before the test.I havnt gotten around to buying the PRSP textbook as it cost $39 and is currently short on cash.Its needed for examination and tests....- -;; and I have to get it by monday.Maybe...I have to sell one of my ps3 games.....Mother and Father is seen pressing numbers at the calculator everyday....- -;;

Finally my calls to translink got through.The lady told me to go collect it at maxwell road.A place which I somewhat know.Been there a few times to umm do stuff on father's behalf.Planning to go there with mother on Friday.

Lol after about 2 years since Mai gone ghost,I am still somewhat girl-less.By this I mean I am not interested in any girl and is not rabbu-rabbu(madly in love).I do wonder if I am gay XD.Lol kidding.The "videos" and growing picture gallery proves otherwise.

I admit DOTA is quite nice.But it requires knowledge about what stuff to buy and skills to use....which I cant be bothered with most of the time.
MGS4 is coming out in about 2 weeks time and I am afraid I may not be able to buy it immediately when it comes out due to again cash contraints.HERESY!!!!

My current low cash situation is attributed to 2 causes
-my elder sister not fulfilling her role to provide atleast $300 per month on purpose
-my elder sister and my mother had bought jewelry from a friend in the past and is paying through installments...which is part of cause 1.

Reminder

Its time to list the stuff I have to do and submit

WDS proposal,must go find books on kites,write out the requirements...the works.
Visilit pattern design...2 on A3 mounting boards and the development process
CMSK roleplay and poster....not much to do thankfully
INCG board game prototype.Garry hasnt asked for it,most likely next week


Its only later that I realized that I have somewhat maybe doomed myself by choosing kites as my web design project.Lol no turning back now.

In my class there be a mix of characters which are either
-super lazer and like to touch people
-normal
-arrogance
-the too laid back and rather go home and sleep

I fall into the too laid back and rather go home and sleep considering I sleep at 3am daily doing god knows what XP.The super lazer's are tolerable provided I am not their target.The normal are great to talk to.The arrogance,well maybe they still young guns and percieve themselves as god's gift to the world.

Recently managed to finally download mugen...which actually is the version which always crashed.Then dowloaded another two version,and now using the latest version.Went through all the headache cause the forum didnt list down what was the lastest stuff.Managed to play and well was button mashing most of the time as I dont know the move set,nor was there a move set tutorial.Some characters were obviously imbalanced..- -;; and surprisingly haruhi wasnt even much of a push over lol.

Anyways will post more later on in the week.

superfulous

I am a Warhammer 40k fanatic.Even bored my sister with it lol.

I just had a great idea and have been toying with it for awhile.As you would not know,Dawn of war has already 5 additional races that are playable and about another 4 races in the works that were created by the modding community that are top notch.I was thinking about making another race with fellow modders once I know how to model and code which probably is next year.The race I been thinking about is the Ordo Xenos,which is the most diffcult race to do as well,there isn't much info on that.So I would be in the meantime researching the Ordo Xenos.I do have a basic idea how to they should work out.

Okay I actually been not eating lunch inorder to save money should the need arise.Although my mother been nagging not to do that,I know better the situation and feels sort of responsible to do my part somehow.So if you found Loki sprawled on the ground somewhere,please take me home and revive with cold water XP.

My little sister is finally excited about LE gaCY XD.I count that as a victory cause thats one more person who reads my story.As for the posting of the chapters....well I think in the mean time,if you are interested,just msn me and I will give it to you.Please repay with feedback.I think I remembered a while back someone feedback to me he/she outright hated it due to it being very different and did not like the stuff I suggested you to listen to inserts.

Recently had a chat with Syam and again with some people of the past whom i come across,he hasn't changed.....well atleast from what I can assume.I thought it was impossible to go through 2 years of ITE and come out still the same person.I knew I wasn't.I admit I was an impudent and thought the world wasn't that big.Now I guess I more evil-er.But hey atleast I am being honest to myself.Kinda surprise how violent Syam reacted to those "kind" of videos.Its like he was 16 years old or something.Well thats his mindset and I won't taint it lol.

Good news is that my parents bought printer Ink....much to my dissapproval and under reason that my mother didn't want me to run around helplessly to find a printer to print stuff last minute,which I always do.

OH yeah,last friday something so the f***ed up happened to me.
I flashed my brand new EZ-link to the bus driver and dropped 55cents which is perfectly the way you should do it.My EZ-link clearly states tertiary student and has the temasek logo on it.
BUT NO.....
The bloody driver asked me to give me his EZ-link and dont know gibberish he was talking about and took my EZ-link under the reason of investigation...- -;;...atleast thats what it says on the piece of paper he gave me.
That was before he profusely said"THIS CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT"
I of course did argue but he said something about apply etc....
And now I am back to s*** square one.Thanks alot translink.Thanks for not training your staff to recognize an OFFICIAL EZ-LINK THAT YOU ISSUED THAT YOUR OWN DRIVER CAN'T RECOGNIZE!So much for your bus captain titles huh

To resolve this,I have to call the office 5 working days later.God knows when I will be collecting my card again.Had waited 2 weeks for it and I haven't even held it for more than 48hrs!

Just found out something so impossible....
The creators of Haruhi Suzumiya which i used to like and now define as Heresy
The creators of Air which I really like...




ARE ONE AND THE SAME.

My god...- -;;

Grad

Graduation was fun.It was great to see and know what your classmates have turned out or become the past 4 months.Although the supposedly tribute video didnt show us Engineering students alot.
And the auditorium was freaking hot - -;;.Gonna miss that life.It was the only time in my life that I actually wanted to go to school.Now,well not so.More to because I have to keep the dream alive.The dream that is to turn LEgaCy into either a game or an animation.Its my brain child,thats why I am very particular about it and want feedback which unfortunately sometimes is hard to get.

As it turns out,quite pro at CS after all ^^.Last time I played,I was alittle behind syam's level of skill but I think now I am alot better.I guess playing all the console shooters had help build up my skills after all lol.

Cant wait for MGS4 seriously!After watching the new trailer,made me want to go out and buy it and play it and not sleep until I complete it.Especially when you defeat the Beauty and the Beast boss unit without killing them,you are rewarded with the beauty side of the bosses....Laughing Octopus is HOT!...well minus the tentacles that is.

Finally got around to watch anime again.Had to force myself to watch.Watched Shakugan no shana the second episode 2.It was nice,although the standard girls fight over one guy whom is a wimp but is alittle smart gets alittle old on me.But its shana's reaction that keeps me going lol.The battle scenes could be done alittle more as Shana was attacking atleast 4 times and was blocking the whole time while Yuji was being a target and...

WHY THE HELL THE VILLAIN STOP SHOOTING WHEN YUJI WAS STANDING STILL AND THINKING???

Have started to not eat lunch in order to save money due to possibly having another finacial crisis due to

1)Laptop payment
2)Poly fees
3)Driving lessons

- -;;Feel so godamm guilty cause its my fault.Been asking around for a job.Planning to work on weekends.Not something intensive.Maybe something like cheers or 7-11.

Cant find a blogskin to accommodate the format I want.So at most maybe
1)re-edit it to make it fit nicer into blogger
2)Upload it somewhere and you download it(My choice but chances of getting people to feedback is low)
3)Send through msn....
4)I say the latest chapter is done and you ask for it and I send it to you.

OR

someone help me find a blog skin that the content can span atleast more than half the webpage.

Emo-ey-ness

Last Saturday was Danish's big birthday party which in my opinion,got alittle too large for a 2 year old's birthday.I have no photos as Danish refused photography.But the kid is like a little energizer battery!Even though feeling unwell,he's running around outside the house and playing with kids way older than he is.And there's the occasional fit he throws when he is dragged inside by his parents to make him meet relatives and friends.Even I am afraid of Danish's father to be honest ^^;;....

Before going to the party,I had my first ever driving lesson.I got to admit,I wasn't listening half to what the uncle was explaining as umm it didn't really makes much sense at that time.I counted about 9 times that the car stalled and one which stalled violently ^^;; lol.Its because I forgot to step on the clutch each time before braking.And I almost ran over someone XD.Key word Almost.

I now believe the qoute that I now coined during a conversation with a friend.
"After O'levels everyone become monsters that is unrecognizable when met again later."
In my experience,some have taken a huge step back in maturity department,some have the live life hard,die harder and there those who never changed.

I had two 3 hours sleep nights due to design 101,which was the bane of my existence.Never before in my natural life that I had to color like a mad man until up to 3am in the morning.Although end result,quite happy with it and quite happy that the teacher said"Now this is graphic design 101".Will provide pictures soon.

- -;;,NO ONE seem to have noticed that I took down all my story post's at my story blog for editing purposes as blogger doesnt allow to many spaces in one post....so it cramps all the text into a wall of text.I now have to break it into 2 parts each.
Still sad considering Chibi only read - -;;.Maybe I should write stories for her only instead...hmm

This friday I have CCN day,which you set up shop and sell stuff for charity.Everyone who is in first year HAVE to be involved...- -;;.I think thats the only real reason why the class stuck together in the first place.The HAVE clause and the "might as well do it since we have to do it "mindset.Unfortunately I have the "Lets leave it to burn and die"mindset I got from ITE lol.I "volunteered" to be on the ice-cream team cause I thought origianlly we had to scoop ice-cream and seeing that only yours truly have the experience to scoop ice-cream,"volunteered".But I think I will be the umm.......not to sure actually.I can frankly say though we are a facade of a class ,but heck,most of the time I am not too concern with it anyway so thought its hap-hazardly working,at least its working.

Tomorrow is graduation.So excited XD.Unlike those who think "I CANT GO CAUSE IT WILL LEAD TO MA DOOMZZ!!"

Howdy

Here there,howdy howdy ho!Its kero's corner time(err the flying thingy in cardcaptor sakura)
*Blasts away kero with Loki's mind power*
Just realized something.In my time at ITE,I have somewhat lost what is know as grammatically correct english and have used what is known to me as you can understand english.May not be grammatically correct,but you still understand it anyways.I admit,my story entires does have have a little problem with past tense and when to use S at the end of a word like developerS.
The way I write is through the sound of the words...weird huh?lol

You would be pleased to know I would be writing chapter 6(I think) this week end....even though no one EVER reads it......- -;;well maybe except Clare.......provided she isnt emo or busy
My sister didnt really like it as she says its too deep...
come to think of it only about 4 odd people ever vist my blog.
Syam(recently),erist(occasionally),Faithy(depends on the moon)Clare(depends on the sun)
My rants must be too deep or something.......

At the present moment,I am about 1hr44mins away from regaining my GFX status back.Would be faster if the computer didnt actually die 3 time in a row - -;;.

Also,I will be accepting suggestions on what anime to watch right now,no matter how downright senseless,stupid or cliche it is.

My cambodian research has made headway,my WDS project I choosen to do kites(dont ask) and for INCG 1,200 word report maybe a game review on FF7......dont actually know how to write a game review......maybe the social impacts of gaming....hmmm

The adeptus Sororitas mod is off the chains man!Seriously the Canoness(even saying it is so cute lol) and the inquistor is so ****ing hot XD.Although the mod is still in beta.Playable but once relic units and vehicle comes in,your dead.Living saint life is too low and do too little damage for any good.All the mods had custom voices...which was fine,but lack ANGRY and FERVOUR!


My faternal grandmother seems to be recovering from her stroke,previously couldnt move,now can sit up.To be honest,I always been afraid of my grandmother on my father's side.Dont know why,just is.Something like you see a gun and you fear it for no reason.I havent been close to either grandmothers as my mother and father sort of have a treaty that no grandparent must stay at our house,due to past experiences with them that usually turns bad.Thats why I sort of regret that I wasnt close enough to my maternal grandmother when she passed on.As for my grandfathers,my maternal grandfather passed away when my mother was 12.There was this running joke that he died falling from a bus when he actually died at home.My fathernal grandfather(passed on too) I met him when was young,but I dont remember what he looked like.

Since on the context of family and the mood is sort of sad,going to share alittle about my life when to me,was quite dark.
I was about sec 2.To be honest,I was never close to anyone,in my so called clique there were 7 guys,so I was left with no "partner"so yeah we talked but,no one really knew me.Family was in crisis due to financial difficulties that lead to my mother going out to work.So no one at home most of the time except me and my pretty young little sister.My elder sister had already upped and ran away from home,so she didn't care.So I was put incharge of taking of younger sister. I sacrificed my afternoons staying at home for my sister's sake.Thats the other reason I quit Military Band.Sometimes food was down to just eating fried rice everyday - -;;.And it was apparent my father was alittle short on love for me as he used it all on my younger sister,the pampered one.So I had every reason to turn into a void deck gangster and lost.....which for some reason I didnt lol.My story aint that tragic like those you read in the papers,but it did have some impact on my life.Brighter note was family managed to come up with something to tide over crisis.
Fast forward 2 years later you get the Idiot phase where Loki gets used(in more ways than one),dumped and blamed for trying to psycho a wimp into tell the girl he like that he likes her...sheesh
I guess what my mother says is true:"The good always gets used and bullied"

All this came up because my little sister is complaining she has a hard life and it sucks etc.

Lights at the end of the tunnel

Got mixed news in the bag this past few weeks.
Lets start with the somewhat seemingly bad one/s

My grandmother on my father's side recently suffered a stroke,which was apparently triggered by stress and she not eating her medication.Was sort of scary when we went to visit her.Like any normal human being,i do feel sympathy and alittle well,wish you had been closer to her.It was the same with my grandmother on my mother's side.I wasnt aware though,that I was in the house of flying daggers.I was this because I do have an idea of what evil lurks in the hearts of the relatives on my father's side.In short,my mother wasnt the intended candidate for my father to marry,and you can figure out the rest.

Managed to lay my hands on a laptop(typing this blog on it as we speak),which was sort of bittersweet.It came at a cost of pride on my father's part,and that very well makes me a hell of alot guilty.Long story short,my father cant exactly use his name to buy stuff at courts or best denki.Another hint is that my father cant leave singapore without the IPTO officer's approval.He had to ask his younger brother to use his name while my father will pay the installments through him.It may seem trivial but,knowing again my family history.....

The laptop is still quite unfamiliar to me as I have never used Vista before.Its quite nifty but its quite a jump from XP to vista.I dont plan to kill this laptop though.By killing means visit questionable websites ^^;; which are filled with evil viruses.Good thing is that the internet behaves well on the laptop,Although it is weird as I am using a wired connection,and the cable is strecthing across the living room to where I am sitting at my throne.

EZ-link situation.You would think you would get your EZ-link on the spot after going to the concession office.BUT NO.....they will screw you over by saying to collect your EZ-link 2 weeks later at your school.- -;; and me being an ITE student,cant fall back on my old student EZ-link as it long went expired along time ago.

Its sort of harder for me now to acquire games now cost poly drains my cash alot.Using an adult EZ-link means I have to set aside atleast $10 incase it runs out.And food dont come cheap either.Add random cost of other stuff like printing costs,buying of books.
I give poly the huge middle finger - -;;
SOULSTORM is out now,although despite the only plus point it being the 2 new races,still going to get it.The uncle at my old game joint reccomended me to buy GTAIV,which I lack cash.Why the heck is it M18?It doesnt contain any nudity or sexual scenes last I recall.
If it does contain them,hehe I will get it tomorrow no question about it.

My research on cambodian customs have come to a standstill.Cant exactly find out precise information and is not allowed to use wikipedia.Damm.Atmost what comes out seems this khmer rouge guy and some stuff that I dont understand about their civil war etc.

Recently went to my aunt's house again to play with Danish.He is one heck of a weather cloud.He may be playing with you one moment,and the next he will throw random stuff at you out of a fit.He evens runs into me and can take me down and pin me to the floor ^^;;.Doesnt hurt and sort of fun actually.He will be celebrating his 2nd birthday soon and ny mother bought a set of clothes for him(which I joined in and got a T-shirt out of it too XP).


And now on top my classmates.After 2 weeks with them,my opinion of them still havnt changed.They are to me still basically talk sh%t and have no idea what the hell they are talking about.I have no respect for that kind of people - -;; as it seriously pisses me off.Its not being accomadating nor just turning a deaf ear sometimes anymore,especially when some are pretty racist,although I do condemm my own race.

Havnt been able to draw at all as I am swamped with all this work poly is giving me.While I havnt encountered any real difficulties,its just irritating and yes I have already begun to skip lectures that I find will not benefit mankind.

Came across achmed the dead terrorist during orientation camp,and yeah it is the funny.Xun did show it to me but my desktop com has no sound.I watched it by downloading it and watching it on my phone.

Lastly,read black lagoon on onemanga.com and balalaika is even more cooler in the manga.Revy seems atad tamer though,and sometimes I could swear her ponytail is missing.

Oh last good news

LOKI DA GFX MAY RETURN XP!

And damm typing on a the laptop is like playing piano,so nice~^^
the touchpad/mouse thingy on the other hand,is something got to get used to,its hard to play games with it.

At a lost of words

Finally,god gives me a break,which isnt totally the answer to all my problems.
Basically heres the breakdown of the problem that is pilling up.

OLE is the root cause here,because I as a RESPONSIBLE student have to download lecture notes,tutorials and assignments from there.....on my own + with no printer + libary printing system sucks = problem.Did manage to remedy this problem with a little of Loki's ingenious resourcefullness.But again,it is being update daily,so I cant always go to that place to print.

Another problem.My account apparently has some problems,I cant access surveys.....which I ABSOLUTELY MUST DO,quote the teachers there.The solution,call a number which I dont have or know where to get.- -;;.

The not having Laptop is seriously killing me as most assignments are to be done on it.No solution anytime soon.It also should double as lecture notes as its actually crazy to printout the whole thing which is like...30 pages?

The books cost a bomb,although they did say High reccomended to buy.....

EZ-LINK is still no where to be seen....

Care person just emailed me the exemption thingy...which is due tomorrow...which I dont have school...- -;;.Its like almost they dont want you to be exempted here....

We pay like $1,600 in school fees and they cant come up with a decent printing system through Ez-link like the one in ITE?

I think the people who came up with "lets leave the students to print their own notes rule"thought that all students have printers and are rich SOBs.....

With that of my chest,its time to move on.Plus side is that I have a 4 day school week,which is bound to change after the first semester.So far I have about 4 assignments,which is well......irritating.I miss ITE,cause well the system is much more better,nuff said.

It looks like I wont be able to buy any new games anytime soon as my money is slowly being sapped away.

Just got my graduation invite and will most definitely go,(good reason to skip school).Sazali and Asyik already said they would go but,got to take that with a pinch of salt.Farid wont go cause apparently he if he didnt,he would jeopardise his WHOLE LIFE if he was absent for even 5HRS.No joke(joke intended here).

Oh yeah,out of competitve-ism,I did.....draw...Its nothing special and just made me realise how much I suck at drawing but,what the heck.Quite proud of it actually.It was supposed to be Lanna...but half-way realised that she was supposed to have curly tresses.....so the girl now is a "random"character or so until I change my mind.....or something
And yeah the throne like thing could use more details but I was lazy after drawing the girl.















Oh if you cant really figure out,she is crossing her fingers..like Intergra from hellsing always do.


I WANT GTA IV........T_T.........

back

Finally back from camp,and the so called week zero is coming to a close.
The camp was well fun,would be crazy not to call it fun.
Just have a few small gripes here and there.
Like cheers were literally droned into our brains.
Had to sleep on a hard wooden floor
The food was...umm maybe hospital food kind?lol
At bedok reseirvoir,cant see the stage and whoever was performing.Could only see heads.
As I predicted though,my name wasnt on the list and my matric card has not appeared.
Its kind of irritating due to the fact of the whole process is different for ITE graduates then fresh O level people.

They recieved the enrolment package way earlier,ALL of them already have their Ez-link cards and their name already is registered.I am still borrowing my mother's EZ-link due to my ITE one already has expired.
MR LOKI ON THE OTHER HAND,recieved it only on the 10th which I could only get most of the form done on the 14th as some required my father to be present at the bank and some bank seals,and I only had 5 working days to settle everything....- -;;And I wasnt told about the ITT orientation camp either.Lucky for me,I read and called up ITT and had enough time to download and print out the form.I was like Jason bourne for the next half hour of the camp as some teacher was finding out which class I am in and if i was really in that course.

The course seems pretty intense.I do have some experience in programming,but most of them are machine related.Having some doubts whether or not I can actually make through this.Unlike ITE,cant really afford to slack alot.I also cant mess this one up as alot is ridding on me here.I rarely get stressed but this time I can really feel it,the fear of failing is hovering over me like some cloud and I am seriously scared.
I know I can do it and I am somewhat smart,but maybe its not enough.
I dont expect to get distinction or anything.Just want to get enough to pass if possible.

Afraid cause it not just me,but my parent's hopes are also riding on this.Since my eldest sister has let go of all resposiblities and my parents already somewhat disown her,the task of providing for family falls on to me.My youngest sister is only primary six and my father is getting in on his years.He cant possibly work at his job for another 5 years as its already taking a toll on him.If I fail the course,$3,000 is burnt just like that,and for my family,that is alot of money.This thought is always at the back of my head.Thats why I dont dare to dream of entering university after NS.
If I dont make it,I think I would overwork myself to death.Like work 2 jobs simulatenously.
And must get hands on laptop........................F***.......................

So do you think loki can make it?please sms your vote to islokidoomed?(the tagboard)

Mixing with 16-17 year olds in my class,I realise,that I miss my old class.I enjoy my old class cause they were more down to earth and more driven.We also share a common goal,which is to support our families.They were also alot more open and honest with themselves.Dude if you arent aleast bit interested in THAT kind of stuff,your not a dude lol and deny it is like...secondary school man.Yes my mind is that corrupted.Oh photo time ^^
forgot to post these and decided to post everything one shot.
















HK seminar,infront of bruce lee...well statue.















Loki not very good looking....- -;;















Inside millenia tower building,on the job^^















HK seminar,one of the best moments of my life















Danish,the soon to be 3 year old.

And the terrorist photo is missing....damm.
This blog post sounds very depressing....hmmm

Riot Dragon

Finally am about to finish answering all the forms,thanx to mother for filling them up for me while I recite my NRIC and other stuff like a broken nusery rhyme.
Only left with the medical checkup tomorrow,which I dont even have to book an appointment due to it being....SATA?
Its amazing how many forms you got to fill up.Its like they purposely dump forms on you just to discourage you from entering in the first place.The more irritating forms are the ones regrading financial stuff.THEY require YOU to go down to a BLOODY bank to get a STAMP just to autheticate stuff..- -;;.....and that hasnt include to include your parents IC,your IC,birthcertificate and even yes....My parents Marriage certificate.
And my new photo taken is well...umm looked like I just woke up and was riding a motocycle XD.

Had a look at my O'level result slip.Been two years and yes it was dusty.Still think it was a **** up that i got results good enough for JC yet poly wont accept me.

On sunday went on a worthless trip to some place in malaysia called Nilai...which was basically something like Arab street,just add sufocating atmosphere and its very hot.
I thought it was me,being too pampered with shopping mall Aircons,but it was damm hot.I could swear,someone could suffocate to death when you walk into the bazaar.
But on the plus side,got to play with my cousin's(which is more to auntie status although cousin) kid.He's name is Danish and he's slowly learning to speak and its amazing how fast he learn things,he's only 2 years old.He's very friendly although alittle on the spoiled side.He would pinch those who dont comply with his demands....and yes,his pinches hurt alot ><.To show how smart he is,He figured out how to switch on my PS3 lol.

Recently watched rented dvds,cause even with SCV,it is possible that it get boring sometimes too,even with additional 100+ channels.
Watched "Enchanted"
It sort of made me actually wanted to add singing scenes to my stories lol.It was great,not sappy and the songs actually fit the theme of fairy tale meet real world.
Watched Fight Club,cause some internet dudes were raving how great it is.
Didnt really understand it.Thought the whole movie was about...well underground fighting.But is more of a dude,didnt realise he had an alter ego and was going about blowing up buildings etc.

Been playing harvest moon...which is a farming game..........not much to say lol.

Reading a doujin that has dark saber in it was quite interesting.
Not that I have interest in the actual story but the characters are good.

What this do again?

The PDL in the end costed $25 and you get
*que get quest item sound*
A measly green card which you have to tear along the perforated line yourself.
No wonder everyone was gripe-ing on that piece of paper cost $25
My father is excited on the prospect that I may be driving him around soon^^;;
I figure it would take about a year,that hasnt also included that WE DONT OWN A CAR.
So that would add on another 2 years max.
Father has been busy asking me to find a private instructor and get with the program soon..- -;;

After buying the PDL,decided to try out the Naked Fish Shoppe at the grassroots club at Yio Chu kang.
And Damm it was good and the service was unexpectedly good.
I had the tuesday promotion,which was Surf & Turf,which was fish that was pan seared and smotherd with lemon butter sauce and a steak with black pepper sauce.
My mother and little sister had fish and chips lol
It was very nice,only wish they added more sauce for me and the waiter explained to me that I get soup,tea and a desert...didnt know that ^^;;
The manager even changed the desert for my sister as the ice-cream was all melted.
Back at pizza hut...i just serve melted ice-cream XP

Which reminds me.Pizza hut decided to pay my remaining salary....
...with just $30....WTF!!!!
I am a victim of exploitation here!
I worked my bones off my last week there and this is the thanks I get?
F*** pizza hut....- -;;

Kenneth's Figurine collection is quite extensive.I already went to his house on two occasions.He recently got a Tidus and a traditional Yuna which stood on his self above his PC which he never switches off, in a room which is chaotic peace,meaning its messy but what you need is all there in the clutter.He also paints,but so far on gundams...not full scale,the almost chibi ones.

Today I went to collect my enrolment package.
Along the way,unexpectedly ran into Azmi and Farhan.
First question Azmi asked was..
"Kau dah main MGS4 ke belum?"(Have you played MGS4?)
"Havnt released yet,its on JUNE"
"Oh..."
Farhan was laughing I think.
The enrolment package....IS A MASSIVE HEADACHE ATTACK.
First I must accept the offer online before Firday 5pm.....which I cant as I have to print out the medical appointment form which I cant as I dont have printer and I must make an appointment with the list of clinics providing this service and I must pay $25....
Must also print GPA transcript and also must go back to old school to ask testimonial from Mr ruhaizat......- -;;
On top of that 3 passport size recent photos AND a whole load of finacial forms to complete which I dont dare to complete as I may make a mistake and declare bankruptcy or something.Going to ask my Aunt to help fill up as she's experienced with forms ^^;;
oh and did I tell you I must complete this quest within 4 days I accept the offer?

I read on the booklet...and came across one thing I hate most...
Orientation.
I mean,yeah I am going to know people and make friends but not through a series of mindless-no-point games and maybe embrassing games in front of the public eye....- -;;
Oh they included a one-night camp....oh joy....
build rapport with seniors,juniors and freshmen they say,get to know the surroudings they say...

Actually I know what caramel dasen is,seen it around but I thought it was the Numa Numa dance lol.
And by the emperor....
THEY MADE ONE OF DANTE AND NERO!
its.....heresy beyond heresys!The creator should be burned,grounded into dust and used as a lubricant for bolters..- -;;

As far as I know about PS3 being modified,I only know about the sofware being changed to Yellow Dog linux to play SNES games.So far from the few games site and forums that I check on for developments,so far none so the news of my friend purchasing a modded PS3 and dowloading PS3 games is sort of suspicious.The person who sold it that is.Its sort of a problem for the PS3 the way I see it as download size + Install size = minus the hardrive space on your PS3.And maybe downloaded PS3 games could have problems playing online,like pirated PC games.

Rated-Rsz

Today,after failing one Final theory Test due to over-confidence,I finally passed it.Now that the Theory part is over,the real fun begins.The practical.Every dude dreams of the day where he can roam free and travel around,without having to stop needlessly at bus stops to pick up people,tap money sapping cards(Ez-link) and bear with the musical of the bus engine along with people talking at the top of their voices and the occasional "Ding-dong".

Only one slight oversight.I forgot that SSDC,most of the transactions are in NETS.- -;;So I queued for 1hr+ for nothing.....
So I couldnt buy the PDL(Provisional Driver's Licence) and yes tomorrow I have to return again and wait out the 1hr queue.

Another piece of news is,Yes it is true,Loki the Deciever was accepted into Temasek Poly under the course for Games and Digital Entertainment.PAST experience tells me that often,the name of the course sounds impressive but actually its not that great.Why I didnt choose to go on to an engineering course is that well,I wanted to learn fabrication but that was in Nitec and Game related stuff was also in Nitec BACK THEN.So techically I spent 2 years doing...nothing^^;; but atleast well...umm..learnt mechanical stuff.....which I have no idea how's that gonna help me lol.
Maybe in a situation where....

Somewhere on a road...
Driver:OMG!!!!THE BUS ENGINE IS DA DAMAGES!!!
Passenger's:OHNOES!!!!!
*Loki goes to look at the Bus engine,sees a rod sticking out and pulls it,the engine "wakes"up*
Driver:THE BUSS LIVES!!!!!!THANK YOU KNOWLEDGABLE ONE!!!!

Have to somewhat agree that Singapore Education System does encourage Elite-ism.While the brilliant ones have their future literally paved in gold for them with people hailing them as kings,the ones that are left behind arent really taken into account on how they too can be successful.They have to find their chair of hope,playing musical chairs in the room of darkness in hopes to daydream their future.I know this,from first hand experience.They are equally great people,just alittle lost and unsure of what to do and what is being taught at lesson seems..useless to them.So they succumb into deep sleep mode in which they dont care and this effect is multiplied when their peers does the same.They are given a false future,that is the current often under-payed and exhausting part time jobs they have and believe they can atleast survive on this alone.

Anthony bourdain way's of hosting his show"Anthony Bourdain's:No reservation" has infected me abit.The way he describe culture etc.Made me come up with a different way to describe things by relating them to situations and characters we know.

Patapon.Its a blast to play and how your patapon reacts to you is pretty adorable.Just that its SO HARD!.Some boss fights require you to mantain"Fever"....which is hard as when they enter fever,I get lost on the beats and usually beat too fast.. - -;;

God of war:Chains Of Olympus is pretty brutal smashing fun.The way you execute your opponent is to a what a hammer does to a tomato with sick ninja moves.And there should be more of "that"kind of mini-games,considering there is only 1,most of the female characters in the game are topless and well the first 1 is just a vibrating candle and you can never go wrong with those kinds of mini games lol.

Crisis core wise,I stopped playing for awhile as the gameplay system is pretty much the same and I dont like the fact that my limit breaks are random and often not very group killers.
Atleast Aerith and Cissnei was in there to provide reason to carry on lol.I find it amusing that Zack can take on armys,bosses and summons whose attacks literally destroy part of the world, cant survive a sniper shot to the head.....- -;;

Dawn Of War II has been annouced.Its like the girl at the back of your class,you ignore her and think she's no threat to your throne,when suddenly one day she goes into super saiyan mode 4 and big bang kamehameha X100 to nothing.Not alot have been mentioned,except for the playable races are Space marines and the Orkz.


While roaming around,discover some interesting forum member replies
"Cause Real girls are ugly,high-maintainence and talk too much"A reply on why video game girl characters are hot lol.