The RavenWing: back

Finally back from camp,and the so called week zero is coming to a close.
The camp was well fun,would be crazy not to call it fun.
Just have a few small gripes here and there.
Like cheers were literally droned into our brains.
Had to sleep on a hard wooden floor
The food was...umm maybe hospital food kind?lol
At bedok reseirvoir,cant see the stage and whoever was performing.Could only see heads.
As I predicted though,my name wasnt on the list and my matric card has not appeared.
Its kind of irritating due to the fact of the whole process is different for ITE graduates then fresh O level people.

They recieved the enrolment package way earlier,ALL of them already have their Ez-link cards and their name already is registered.I am still borrowing my mother's EZ-link due to my ITE one already has expired.
MR LOKI ON THE OTHER HAND,recieved it only on the 10th which I could only get most of the form done on the 14th as some required my father to be present at the bank and some bank seals,and I only had 5 working days to settle everything....- -;;And I wasnt told about the ITT orientation camp either.Lucky for me,I read and called up ITT and had enough time to download and print out the form.I was like Jason bourne for the next half hour of the camp as some teacher was finding out which class I am in and if i was really in that course.

The course seems pretty intense.I do have some experience in programming,but most of them are machine related.Having some doubts whether or not I can actually make through this.Unlike ITE,cant really afford to slack alot.I also cant mess this one up as alot is ridding on me here.I rarely get stressed but this time I can really feel it,the fear of failing is hovering over me like some cloud and I am seriously scared.
I know I can do it and I am somewhat smart,but maybe its not enough.
I dont expect to get distinction or anything.Just want to get enough to pass if possible.

Afraid cause it not just me,but my parent's hopes are also riding on this.Since my eldest sister has let go of all resposiblities and my parents already somewhat disown her,the task of providing for family falls on to me.My youngest sister is only primary six and my father is getting in on his years.He cant possibly work at his job for another 5 years as its already taking a toll on him.If I fail the course,$3,000 is burnt just like that,and for my family,that is alot of money.This thought is always at the back of my head.Thats why I dont dare to dream of entering university after NS.
If I dont make it,I think I would overwork myself to death.Like work 2 jobs simulatenously.
And must get hands on laptop........................F***.......................

So do you think loki can make it?please sms your vote to islokidoomed?(the tagboard)

Mixing with 16-17 year olds in my class,I realise,that I miss my old class.I enjoy my old class cause they were more down to earth and more driven.We also share a common goal,which is to support our families.They were also alot more open and honest with themselves.Dude if you arent aleast bit interested in THAT kind of stuff,your not a dude lol and deny it is like...secondary school man.Yes my mind is that corrupted.Oh photo time ^^
forgot to post these and decided to post everything one shot.