Come back to me

Recently heard an old muse song that
I never knew.
And damm sick.
You should listen to it,the name of the song is muscle museum.
And yes,the video is damm weird,standard muse lol.


Recently made a banner.First one after a 2 years plus hiatus.It was a request from my little sister lol.It took me longer than usual as I forgot how to do certain things and the short cut keys etc.

















Now to address something that have been bugging me for awhile.
Why would you create a blog.....
....and then put a password so that only people that knows it can read it?
I mean its really pointless considering you put up a blog for people to read in the first place.
What?Afraid people would flame you?Dont want your enemies to spam your tagboard?Afraid or embrassed to post stuff about your life?Then dont post it in the first place and dont put up a tagboard lol.Might as well keep a pink frilly diary that you keep in your back pocket right?

Someone said my blogskin looks gay and girly.Well for one,I was going for cute,and I rather look forward to seeing something cute rather than a green background with black vectors blog which is baseless.Another is that I cant find a decent enough blogskin as they are literally millions out there.

Oh and someone i knew in the past,is what somewhat crossed that I didnt say hi to her when I bumped into her(yeah she even put a "I cant believe a friend wouldnt say hi" on msn)?Lady I bumped into you atleast 2 time before(yes we even looked dead in the eye) and I aint even a least bit crossed.But I have resolved to NOT acknowledge anyone from my secondary school(with a few exceptions).Its a personal preference.I got reason.Respect it.WORD lol

Now on to the heavier side of things.Have spent many sleepless nights on vislit and Am finally glad that its over.Hope storyboarding isnt as intense as this.Havnt been going to PRSP lectures as even If I go,I dont follow what he is talking about.So I just read notes...which I dont XP.Maybe a day before the test.I havnt gotten around to buying the PRSP textbook as it cost $39 and is currently short on cash.Its needed for examination and tests....- -;; and I have to get it by monday.Maybe...I have to sell one of my ps3 games.....Mother and Father is seen pressing numbers at the calculator everyday....- -;;

Finally my calls to translink got through.The lady told me to go collect it at maxwell road.A place which I somewhat know.Been there a few times to umm do stuff on father's behalf.Planning to go there with mother on Friday.

Lol after about 2 years since Mai gone ghost,I am still somewhat girl-less.By this I mean I am not interested in any girl and is not rabbu-rabbu(madly in love).I do wonder if I am gay XD.Lol kidding.The "videos" and growing picture gallery proves otherwise.

I admit DOTA is quite nice.But it requires knowledge about what stuff to buy and skills to use....which I cant be bothered with most of the time.
MGS4 is coming out in about 2 weeks time and I am afraid I may not be able to buy it immediately when it comes out due to again cash contraints.HERESY!!!!

My current low cash situation is attributed to 2 causes
-my elder sister not fulfilling her role to provide atleast $300 per month on purpose
-my elder sister and my mother had bought jewelry from a friend in the past and is paying through installments...which is part of cause 1.

Reminder

Its time to list the stuff I have to do and submit

WDS proposal,must go find books on kites,write out the requirements...the works.
Visilit pattern design...2 on A3 mounting boards and the development process
CMSK roleplay and poster....not much to do thankfully
INCG board game prototype.Garry hasnt asked for it,most likely next week


Its only later that I realized that I have somewhat maybe doomed myself by choosing kites as my web design project.Lol no turning back now.

In my class there be a mix of characters which are either
-super lazer and like to touch people
-normal
-arrogance
-the too laid back and rather go home and sleep

I fall into the too laid back and rather go home and sleep considering I sleep at 3am daily doing god knows what XP.The super lazer's are tolerable provided I am not their target.The normal are great to talk to.The arrogance,well maybe they still young guns and percieve themselves as god's gift to the world.

Recently managed to finally download mugen...which actually is the version which always crashed.Then dowloaded another two version,and now using the latest version.Went through all the headache cause the forum didnt list down what was the lastest stuff.Managed to play and well was button mashing most of the time as I dont know the move set,nor was there a move set tutorial.Some characters were obviously imbalanced..- -;; and surprisingly haruhi wasnt even much of a push over lol.

Anyways will post more later on in the week.

superfulous

I am a Warhammer 40k fanatic.Even bored my sister with it lol.

I just had a great idea and have been toying with it for awhile.As you would not know,Dawn of war has already 5 additional races that are playable and about another 4 races in the works that were created by the modding community that are top notch.I was thinking about making another race with fellow modders once I know how to model and code which probably is next year.The race I been thinking about is the Ordo Xenos,which is the most diffcult race to do as well,there isn't much info on that.So I would be in the meantime researching the Ordo Xenos.I do have a basic idea how to they should work out.

Okay I actually been not eating lunch inorder to save money should the need arise.Although my mother been nagging not to do that,I know better the situation and feels sort of responsible to do my part somehow.So if you found Loki sprawled on the ground somewhere,please take me home and revive with cold water XP.

My little sister is finally excited about LE gaCY XD.I count that as a victory cause thats one more person who reads my story.As for the posting of the chapters....well I think in the mean time,if you are interested,just msn me and I will give it to you.Please repay with feedback.I think I remembered a while back someone feedback to me he/she outright hated it due to it being very different and did not like the stuff I suggested you to listen to inserts.

Recently had a chat with Syam and again with some people of the past whom i come across,he hasn't changed.....well atleast from what I can assume.I thought it was impossible to go through 2 years of ITE and come out still the same person.I knew I wasn't.I admit I was an impudent and thought the world wasn't that big.Now I guess I more evil-er.But hey atleast I am being honest to myself.Kinda surprise how violent Syam reacted to those "kind" of videos.Its like he was 16 years old or something.Well thats his mindset and I won't taint it lol.

Good news is that my parents bought printer Ink....much to my dissapproval and under reason that my mother didn't want me to run around helplessly to find a printer to print stuff last minute,which I always do.

OH yeah,last friday something so the f***ed up happened to me.
I flashed my brand new EZ-link to the bus driver and dropped 55cents which is perfectly the way you should do it.My EZ-link clearly states tertiary student and has the temasek logo on it.
BUT NO.....
The bloody driver asked me to give me his EZ-link and dont know gibberish he was talking about and took my EZ-link under the reason of investigation...- -;;...atleast thats what it says on the piece of paper he gave me.
That was before he profusely said"THIS CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT"
I of course did argue but he said something about apply etc....
And now I am back to s*** square one.Thanks alot translink.Thanks for not training your staff to recognize an OFFICIAL EZ-LINK THAT YOU ISSUED THAT YOUR OWN DRIVER CAN'T RECOGNIZE!So much for your bus captain titles huh

To resolve this,I have to call the office 5 working days later.God knows when I will be collecting my card again.Had waited 2 weeks for it and I haven't even held it for more than 48hrs!

Just found out something so impossible....
The creators of Haruhi Suzumiya which i used to like and now define as Heresy
The creators of Air which I really like...




ARE ONE AND THE SAME.

My god...- -;;

Grad

Graduation was fun.It was great to see and know what your classmates have turned out or become the past 4 months.Although the supposedly tribute video didnt show us Engineering students alot.
And the auditorium was freaking hot - -;;.Gonna miss that life.It was the only time in my life that I actually wanted to go to school.Now,well not so.More to because I have to keep the dream alive.The dream that is to turn LEgaCy into either a game or an animation.Its my brain child,thats why I am very particular about it and want feedback which unfortunately sometimes is hard to get.

As it turns out,quite pro at CS after all ^^.Last time I played,I was alittle behind syam's level of skill but I think now I am alot better.I guess playing all the console shooters had help build up my skills after all lol.

Cant wait for MGS4 seriously!After watching the new trailer,made me want to go out and buy it and play it and not sleep until I complete it.Especially when you defeat the Beauty and the Beast boss unit without killing them,you are rewarded with the beauty side of the bosses....Laughing Octopus is HOT!...well minus the tentacles that is.

Finally got around to watch anime again.Had to force myself to watch.Watched Shakugan no shana the second episode 2.It was nice,although the standard girls fight over one guy whom is a wimp but is alittle smart gets alittle old on me.But its shana's reaction that keeps me going lol.The battle scenes could be done alittle more as Shana was attacking atleast 4 times and was blocking the whole time while Yuji was being a target and...

WHY THE HELL THE VILLAIN STOP SHOOTING WHEN YUJI WAS STANDING STILL AND THINKING???

Have started to not eat lunch in order to save money due to possibly having another finacial crisis due to

1)Laptop payment
2)Poly fees
3)Driving lessons

- -;;Feel so godamm guilty cause its my fault.Been asking around for a job.Planning to work on weekends.Not something intensive.Maybe something like cheers or 7-11.

Cant find a blogskin to accommodate the format I want.So at most maybe
1)re-edit it to make it fit nicer into blogger
2)Upload it somewhere and you download it(My choice but chances of getting people to feedback is low)
3)Send through msn....
4)I say the latest chapter is done and you ask for it and I send it to you.

OR

someone help me find a blog skin that the content can span atleast more than half the webpage.

Emo-ey-ness

Last Saturday was Danish's big birthday party which in my opinion,got alittle too large for a 2 year old's birthday.I have no photos as Danish refused photography.But the kid is like a little energizer battery!Even though feeling unwell,he's running around outside the house and playing with kids way older than he is.And there's the occasional fit he throws when he is dragged inside by his parents to make him meet relatives and friends.Even I am afraid of Danish's father to be honest ^^;;....

Before going to the party,I had my first ever driving lesson.I got to admit,I wasn't listening half to what the uncle was explaining as umm it didn't really makes much sense at that time.I counted about 9 times that the car stalled and one which stalled violently ^^;; lol.Its because I forgot to step on the clutch each time before braking.And I almost ran over someone XD.Key word Almost.

I now believe the qoute that I now coined during a conversation with a friend.
"After O'levels everyone become monsters that is unrecognizable when met again later."
In my experience,some have taken a huge step back in maturity department,some have the live life hard,die harder and there those who never changed.

I had two 3 hours sleep nights due to design 101,which was the bane of my existence.Never before in my natural life that I had to color like a mad man until up to 3am in the morning.Although end result,quite happy with it and quite happy that the teacher said"Now this is graphic design 101".Will provide pictures soon.

- -;;,NO ONE seem to have noticed that I took down all my story post's at my story blog for editing purposes as blogger doesnt allow to many spaces in one post....so it cramps all the text into a wall of text.I now have to break it into 2 parts each.
Still sad considering Chibi only read - -;;.Maybe I should write stories for her only instead...hmm

This friday I have CCN day,which you set up shop and sell stuff for charity.Everyone who is in first year HAVE to be involved...- -;;.I think thats the only real reason why the class stuck together in the first place.The HAVE clause and the "might as well do it since we have to do it "mindset.Unfortunately I have the "Lets leave it to burn and die"mindset I got from ITE lol.I "volunteered" to be on the ice-cream team cause I thought origianlly we had to scoop ice-cream and seeing that only yours truly have the experience to scoop ice-cream,"volunteered".But I think I will be the umm.......not to sure actually.I can frankly say though we are a facade of a class ,but heck,most of the time I am not too concern with it anyway so thought its hap-hazardly working,at least its working.

Tomorrow is graduation.So excited XD.Unlike those who think "I CANT GO CAUSE IT WILL LEAD TO MA DOOMZZ!!"

Howdy

Here there,howdy howdy ho!Its kero's corner time(err the flying thingy in cardcaptor sakura)
*Blasts away kero with Loki's mind power*
Just realized something.In my time at ITE,I have somewhat lost what is know as grammatically correct english and have used what is known to me as you can understand english.May not be grammatically correct,but you still understand it anyways.I admit,my story entires does have have a little problem with past tense and when to use S at the end of a word like developerS.
The way I write is through the sound of the words...weird huh?lol

You would be pleased to know I would be writing chapter 6(I think) this week end....even though no one EVER reads it......- -;;well maybe except Clare.......provided she isnt emo or busy
My sister didnt really like it as she says its too deep...
come to think of it only about 4 odd people ever vist my blog.
Syam(recently),erist(occasionally),Faithy(depends on the moon)Clare(depends on the sun)
My rants must be too deep or something.......

At the present moment,I am about 1hr44mins away from regaining my GFX status back.Would be faster if the computer didnt actually die 3 time in a row - -;;.

Also,I will be accepting suggestions on what anime to watch right now,no matter how downright senseless,stupid or cliche it is.

My cambodian research has made headway,my WDS project I choosen to do kites(dont ask) and for INCG 1,200 word report maybe a game review on FF7......dont actually know how to write a game review......maybe the social impacts of gaming....hmmm

The adeptus Sororitas mod is off the chains man!Seriously the Canoness(even saying it is so cute lol) and the inquistor is so ****ing hot XD.Although the mod is still in beta.Playable but once relic units and vehicle comes in,your dead.Living saint life is too low and do too little damage for any good.All the mods had custom voices...which was fine,but lack ANGRY and FERVOUR!


My faternal grandmother seems to be recovering from her stroke,previously couldnt move,now can sit up.To be honest,I always been afraid of my grandmother on my father's side.Dont know why,just is.Something like you see a gun and you fear it for no reason.I havent been close to either grandmothers as my mother and father sort of have a treaty that no grandparent must stay at our house,due to past experiences with them that usually turns bad.Thats why I sort of regret that I wasnt close enough to my maternal grandmother when she passed on.As for my grandfathers,my maternal grandfather passed away when my mother was 12.There was this running joke that he died falling from a bus when he actually died at home.My fathernal grandfather(passed on too) I met him when was young,but I dont remember what he looked like.

Since on the context of family and the mood is sort of sad,going to share alittle about my life when to me,was quite dark.
I was about sec 2.To be honest,I was never close to anyone,in my so called clique there were 7 guys,so I was left with no "partner"so yeah we talked but,no one really knew me.Family was in crisis due to financial difficulties that lead to my mother going out to work.So no one at home most of the time except me and my pretty young little sister.My elder sister had already upped and ran away from home,so she didn't care.So I was put incharge of taking of younger sister. I sacrificed my afternoons staying at home for my sister's sake.Thats the other reason I quit Military Band.Sometimes food was down to just eating fried rice everyday - -;;.And it was apparent my father was alittle short on love for me as he used it all on my younger sister,the pampered one.So I had every reason to turn into a void deck gangster and lost.....which for some reason I didnt lol.My story aint that tragic like those you read in the papers,but it did have some impact on my life.Brighter note was family managed to come up with something to tide over crisis.
Fast forward 2 years later you get the Idiot phase where Loki gets used(in more ways than one),dumped and blamed for trying to psycho a wimp into tell the girl he like that he likes her...sheesh
I guess what my mother says is true:"The good always gets used and bullied"

All this came up because my little sister is complaining she has a hard life and it sucks etc.

Lights at the end of the tunnel

Got mixed news in the bag this past few weeks.
Lets start with the somewhat seemingly bad one/s

My grandmother on my father's side recently suffered a stroke,which was apparently triggered by stress and she not eating her medication.Was sort of scary when we went to visit her.Like any normal human being,i do feel sympathy and alittle well,wish you had been closer to her.It was the same with my grandmother on my mother's side.I wasnt aware though,that I was in the house of flying daggers.I was this because I do have an idea of what evil lurks in the hearts of the relatives on my father's side.In short,my mother wasnt the intended candidate for my father to marry,and you can figure out the rest.

Managed to lay my hands on a laptop(typing this blog on it as we speak),which was sort of bittersweet.It came at a cost of pride on my father's part,and that very well makes me a hell of alot guilty.Long story short,my father cant exactly use his name to buy stuff at courts or best denki.Another hint is that my father cant leave singapore without the IPTO officer's approval.He had to ask his younger brother to use his name while my father will pay the installments through him.It may seem trivial but,knowing again my family history.....

The laptop is still quite unfamiliar to me as I have never used Vista before.Its quite nifty but its quite a jump from XP to vista.I dont plan to kill this laptop though.By killing means visit questionable websites ^^;; which are filled with evil viruses.Good thing is that the internet behaves well on the laptop,Although it is weird as I am using a wired connection,and the cable is strecthing across the living room to where I am sitting at my throne.

EZ-link situation.You would think you would get your EZ-link on the spot after going to the concession office.BUT NO.....they will screw you over by saying to collect your EZ-link 2 weeks later at your school.- -;; and me being an ITE student,cant fall back on my old student EZ-link as it long went expired along time ago.

Its sort of harder for me now to acquire games now cost poly drains my cash alot.Using an adult EZ-link means I have to set aside atleast $10 incase it runs out.And food dont come cheap either.Add random cost of other stuff like printing costs,buying of books.
I give poly the huge middle finger - -;;
SOULSTORM is out now,although despite the only plus point it being the 2 new races,still going to get it.The uncle at my old game joint reccomended me to buy GTAIV,which I lack cash.Why the heck is it M18?It doesnt contain any nudity or sexual scenes last I recall.
If it does contain them,hehe I will get it tomorrow no question about it.

My research on cambodian customs have come to a standstill.Cant exactly find out precise information and is not allowed to use wikipedia.Damm.Atmost what comes out seems this khmer rouge guy and some stuff that I dont understand about their civil war etc.

Recently went to my aunt's house again to play with Danish.He is one heck of a weather cloud.He may be playing with you one moment,and the next he will throw random stuff at you out of a fit.He evens runs into me and can take me down and pin me to the floor ^^;;.Doesnt hurt and sort of fun actually.He will be celebrating his 2nd birthday soon and ny mother bought a set of clothes for him(which I joined in and got a T-shirt out of it too XP).


And now on top my classmates.After 2 weeks with them,my opinion of them still havnt changed.They are to me still basically talk sh%t and have no idea what the hell they are talking about.I have no respect for that kind of people - -;; as it seriously pisses me off.Its not being accomadating nor just turning a deaf ear sometimes anymore,especially when some are pretty racist,although I do condemm my own race.

Havnt been able to draw at all as I am swamped with all this work poly is giving me.While I havnt encountered any real difficulties,its just irritating and yes I have already begun to skip lectures that I find will not benefit mankind.

Came across achmed the dead terrorist during orientation camp,and yeah it is the funny.Xun did show it to me but my desktop com has no sound.I watched it by downloading it and watching it on my phone.

Lastly,read black lagoon on onemanga.com and balalaika is even more cooler in the manga.Revy seems atad tamer though,and sometimes I could swear her ponytail is missing.

Oh last good news

LOKI DA GFX MAY RETURN XP!

And damm typing on a the laptop is like playing piano,so nice~^^
the touchpad/mouse thingy on the other hand,is something got to get used to,its hard to play games with it.