Begin's night

What...i am only left with 1 reader........

Okay in any case I am going to talk about something that has been at the back of my mind for a while.

Why dont I have a large circle of friends?I am not an anti-social 0_o
I myself is unsure of this.As they say to have good friends,you need to be a good friend yourself.But I have been good to others,for most part ^^.I dunno its just strange.I do want to have fun and stuff.

Maybe in real life I just dont know what to say sometimes that it comes across as something else.

Its nothing big,just that went compared to others who are socially active,you question these things.

Recently I found out that zero-ey and Cheraliyn got great results for their O-levels(damm buggers say their results suck when it totally pawns mine - -,havnt got into contact with faithy yet)and I guess a sense of proudness came about?lol.Its great to see their on their way to something.Its even more interesting to look back at how it all started.

Zero-ey and Faithy were the remaining people from SG(not singapore lol) that still talks to me and I have met atleast once in real life(that was ages ago). Come to think of it all of the people I knew from SG all dissappeared from my msn contact list.Faithy from then has become a great cosplayer and zero-ey...well still sends me cards which I keep and keep forgetting to send a thank you one back ^^;;

Cheraliyn I met through the mage manga class.She's nice and alittle spontaneous?lol.She's really good at drawing than I was(I even lost to a kid....seriously) and I reckoned she be even better now.Since then she been messing around with music and I guess she will get good one day(Just dont play moe songs/korean songs).I havnt meet her since then which was....idk 3 years ago?

I reckon they all must be even more interesting people by now.I also reckon even if I walk pass them on the street,I be unable to recognize them(esp faithy,I be running from her ^^;;).

As you grow older,I guess certain things you come to see in different light naturally.Like responsibilities or the future.I was forced to mature earlier on in my life so thats why I am making it up by being childish nowadays?^^

Now I have to say that I am sick of heaving korean songs.Not that i find it bad particularly,its just that I hear it at home,I hear it in the bus,I hear it in school,I hear it at home when I get back and I hear it when I sleep.
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Its funny that almost no one,I mean no one(I know anyway) listen to good music.I know its subjective but a song created as a hook will be stuck in your head but has no message or purpose what so ever.

For the record,the only songs I hate are songs from animes that has cute voices and sing about love or whatever and etc.It makes me go bat-shit insane - -;;.

One amazing singer I have recently come across is Aya Kamiki.I got to know her songs through Kamen rider Double(she sang the opening) and she is pretty amazing.She has done several english covers as well.She has been liken to avril lavigne but thats on surface wise.She's infact alot more crazier(has different hair color each time)and her videos feel very real.Not the ones that give your mind an acid trip or rely on sexy themes or skippy clothing.Just song,stage presence and her band and maybe theme to reinforce the song.

I cant say much since I next to nothing about music.

If I ever have a girlfriend(which I dunno I would) and she's trying to be moe,I will personally perform a lobotomy..- -;;

Finally

I havnt updated in over a month because
Starhub cut my internet - -;;.Yeah SCV bills were piling up and they combined both bills into one.Apparently if you dont pay one,you cant get the other

So for over a month during my holidays,i was very very bored at home and forced to leech sucky wireless connection from some guy.

Finally got it back through subscribing to MIO,singtel.

And i guess I lost all my readers..T_T

School has started for me and there is an uneasy feeling.Because it was block teaching,there is no way to know block A's subject results until the end of the whole semester.Not that I know I failed or anything,just that probably my GPA drop lower...- -;;.I am predicting somewhere a flat 2.0

As it turns out most from my course is probably doomed according to some teacher as we all cant program to save ourselves and do not dream to even try modeling etc.Yeah it was the truth,but the way he said it was in a way promoting his course is better and your's just suck.

To me I guess there is a small flaw in the way my course is taught.The first 2 years should just be intense programming as most of us is able to code,just that we need more practice and examples to properly code.

Ah well,here's to my doomed future