Stressed

Today had my first lesson in the ubi circuit.....


It didnt go down so well.It was difficult to focus on what to do cause I was at a loss and I cant remember exactly what I am supposed to do,including my left and right - -;;.It doesnt help also that the uncle keep railing at me what to do.I am fasting too btw so my reaction and memory would be alot weaker.I cant think also with people breathing down on me.My head felt like an over-heated CPU.

And then he said

"You're the worst.You drive confirm accident.Dangerous"

- -;;....that isnt exactly the thing i need with my test just 2 days away.And now I am stressed like I never been stressed before.Not even the O levels.I dont think I can pass my TP test on friday.....I got no confidence.I drive too slow and yet still makes mistakes...amatuer,first day learn driving mistakes.Now I know why some people give up driving entirely after their first try.I have another two lessons,gonna see how tomorrow goes.....le sigh
If you are thinking of learning driving,think twice.....IT WILL SCAR YOU FOR LIFE lol.


The release of my exam results does not help me either as I can honestly believe that I failed my maths and I probably must take the Supplementary paper next week.Well there goes my daily game room privilages.


In times like this,even Loki can get down and currently feels like smashing his head against something.I guess thats why I blog in the first place.Cause there is no one for me to talk to about all this things in the first place and no girlfriend to vent/throw stuff at lol.

Recently heard an unerving tale about a close shave my father had at work.There was an explosion and something blocked the debris from the explosion,that was in front of him.My father had a fair share of accidents throughout the years,like leg fracture and finger fracture.Kinda makes me regret pursueing higher education and not work to help support family.


Over the years,my father's temper has caused much misunderstadings and problems.And over the years,I guess my mother is starting to feel tired putting up with it.I can understand that she feels under-appreciated and everyone just dump chores on her.And recently my father have been flaring up often and there will be cold wars for a period of time between my father and mother.I dont like this but,I cant really do anything about it.I figure they have about another 2-3 years together maybe.


The main cause of it is the cause of every working class citizen out there,Money.The plan was my elder sister was to support the family now and my parents can take it easy.But thats not the case.The lack of money causes overworked parents,which flare up alot and dont communicate.