Again

Just when you thought things are getting better,the dude up there slams the brakes and your life grinds to a halt again.

This by far is the worst hari raya ever.Period.The first day,we didnt go anywhere.Parents are fighting again.Mostly cause of my father's indecisive-ness.The second day,well I thought my parents have made up but no.Because we(me,my sister and mother)forgot to ask for forgiveness before we left home,he was pulling a long face as we went out and didnt say anything.My mother got upset and went home half-way through....

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The next day,father proceeded to lecture me and question my religion etc....- -;;
Its not that I didnt want to ask for forgiveness,which was the tradition of hari raya.Its that the whole"not celebrate it thing" in the first place got me confused on what I should do and my parents fighting didnt help me.My father also apparently hasnt forgiven me over the driving incident as well.The weekends were very long for me as he was at home and it felt like a ticking time bomb.I cant even really sleep in peace.

I think I may have to accept the reality that my parents arent going to last long together.

Also got me thinking that if i got married one day,will i be like this?I certainly hope not.

Verdandi sent me a the yearly message of asking me to go on the yearly hari raya outing.I dont know how to respond to that exactly.

Havnt been online cause mother is sleeping outside and I am not comfortable using the com with someone beside me lol.

Someone please send me some girls or something cause I could use some company lol.