Friday, December 29, 2006

Conspiracy

Hey^^
Nah not in the mood exactly to continue my story..but promise i would though^^.3 more days till new year...i dare say...well things havnt really changed since last year.Well maybe it did..as i now dont hav dreams of being successful...its like its a childish dream and i hav abandoned it.I dont know,call me crazy but....i hav no desire to go to poly anymore...yeah ironic..and crazy.Haha this morning reading the newpaper already made my blood boil.The propaganda has apparently started.You know,Polys advertising in the newspapers asking O level graduates who will recieve their results soon to join them.Tsk...>_>....Still ticks me off that i hav the qualifications to enter JC,got denied by any poly and ended up in ITE.Well its not bad...just that..its not a place for someone as weak and frail like me.I know...in class i am different from most cause i hav an idea what the lecturer even talking about..i am the "smart"one.Well if i am so smart..why did i end up there?....Yeah..that question still lingers and from then on..i hav no ambition...I just want to survive till the next day and next.No more bringing glory to the obviously unknown and misconcepted malays...no more making my name known...no more anything.I hav nothing in my future..yes this strategist had failed to forsee this.I hav no new year's resoultion cause heck....i never fulfill them each yeah.Haha serious and sad tone huh...almost seems that i am that pathetic...maybe i am..that pathetic....Sa ne,even if you tell me otherwise,if i cant see it..i dont believe it.Yeah and Mai well..dissappeared into thin air...yeah lost contact with her..now i really dont hav a reason to live haha.Dont worry..i dont plan to kill anyone or myself...cause well...the grim reaper got to work alittle if he wants my soul XD
Yes congratulations life...you have broken my spirit...go buy yourself candy...maybe the goverment has set a conspiracy on me.....i am starting to believe what my fridge is telling me XD

Recently watched Welcome to NHK and haha its strange-ness is about on par with FLCL...talking funiture and umm wild imagination and reaction.You know,being a NEET doesnt sound so bad....do nothing each day....as your life wastes away..waiting the grim reaper to pick you up.And crunchyroll no fun anymore...i cant watched Tactics cause it was removed...so....i hav to most likely buy it to watch it....sigh....

Playing online makes me realise one thing...if your partner is hopeless...your doomed XD.Yeah in more than one matches,i always get doubled teamed to death cause either my partner is dead,inept or they ganged up on me.I am pretty good so far as my Tau <-->Kroot tactics works so far

*wears mask rider mask*
"Go to hell B**ches!!!!!"Yamazaki-Welcome to NHK..got to be the best line in anime history

Monday, December 25, 2006

8 Days...wow

*continued from the last story*

The guy sat up from his bed.

Panting feverously and was drenched in sweat,he wiped off the sweat off his face.The moonlight shone through his window and illuminated the room.A simple room with just the necessary amenities.He took a deep breath and slowly calmed down.Brushed back his hair with his fingers...it was the same guy...as the one in the dream he had moments ago.His handphone rings and pulsates,breaks the total slience of his room.He grabs it quickly and looks at who is calling.The blue screen with black text red"Operator".He sighed alittle before answering.He flipped up the phone and answered.

"Knew it was you....When you call,its only about Cases...hahaha no call just for concern or missing me?....."He sleepishly joked.
"Be serious,Loki...Lives are on the line.The Deimos do not rest.Now the Case is...."As Loki listened on nodding his head to the details of the case as a voice of a girl spoke on as it was a normality of the Operator to be uptight and strict despite knowing her for a long time.He rose from the bed and glanced out of the window.People where coming out of brightly lit. houses and alarm clocks accompanied with the symphony chirping of birds and barking dogs was heard like a radio tune as the sun was waking up...the blue dissappearing and the colours returning...
"thats all agent,good luck oh and dont go over budget this time..." and with that the Operator hung up.He flipped the phone back to its resting mode and tossed it on his bed.
"Another Crazy party huh...".Loki exclaimed and went to the bath room,with a black coat hung on the door.The circular red clock on the sink read "6.50am".
"SH%T....I AM DAMM LATE FOR SCHOOL!"He quickly jumped into the shower and pulled a towel into the glass cubicle.
Mist of hot water fills the bathroom and fogs the mirror.A hand wipes the fog away and reveals a face of a girl in a somewhat more decorated bathroom.The girl was of that 16 years old with shoulder length blackish brown hair with lighter hazel eyes,beautiful hazel eyes...She brushed her hair while humming a tune...overall a very cheerful girl.

"A,E,I,O,U"she said in a sweet,sweet voice ^^ and with that she threw a smile.A radiant smile...ones that could catch any guys attention or rather hearts and keep that lasting picture of that smile in their mind.She then inspected her uniform with scrutiny in the mirror and left the bathroom..without switching off the light... -- ;;.The main door opens,seeing her sporting a trendy school bag and going off to school.The door closes.The colour changes to a darker colour door ,and saw Loki bursting out of the door with toast in his mouth,uniform unkept and putting on his shoes with the bag slung around him making it a whole lot troublesome as a female voice bid him goodbye.He then rushed off into the direction of the nearby school.The girl gets into a posh,eurpean car parked by the porch,with a lavish mansion standing behind it and had a grand garden encompassing the whole mansion with a fountain placed directly in the middle.The area around the mansion were all semi-detached houses which couldnt compare to the grand mansion Ciel was in.A servant opens the door and Ciel,with all the time in the world,carefully entered.The chauffer inside greets while adjusting his spectacles with his white gloves."Good day miss Ciel^^"She nods and the car begans to move to the opening gate which leads to the outside road....when suddenly Loki darts from out of nowhere like a cat!.He had startled the elderly driver cause the car to nearly veer into a tree before managing to cause so much as a dent to the car by braking hard.Ciel was jerked to the front a little.The elderly driver profusely apologized.Ciel didnt pay attention to the apologetic driver as she was searching for the prepertaitor....she did managed to see the face of the troublemaker.She instantly recognized the uniform....it was of her school.Loki noticed his little crime due to the loud break noise.He kept running and running/
"I am behind payment as it is...- -;; cant afford to pay for that accident"Loki said to himself as the school came into view.


Been 8 days since i last posted haha.Cant post exactly with a sis who doesnt sleep....^^;;...she will be like asking all sort of questions and ruin stories if that movie i never seen...Yesterday's job wasnt so bad..atleast this time farhan and co wasnt around to make my job harder and this guys atleast help me out.Forgot their names though and i never met them before.They would like crack jokes to pass time and not at my expense...hate it when people do that....Its due to my ability of reacting to them..- -;;...as well for a long period of time,i avoided people so....i dont know how to react^^;;...yeah saaaaaaaaaaaad...this is what you get for knowing alot.......people dont understand what you say or talking about.Oh yeah and i woke up late - -''.First time in my life i was late...haha.Took the train and found out that it was under my grandmother on my father's side place.Helped out this lady who couldnt insert the 10 note into the machine as it keeps rejecting it.Lol so i keep straightening it and in the end it worked...Seriously SMRT should come up with less fussy money eating machines.After the job went to Orchard cause i figured,eve of chrismas,should be bussling if activites.Haha indeed it was.It was a visual experience.People with all sorts of clothing was out...it was a cosfest of normal people theme of sorts.And youngsters was spraying each other with some sort of sticky thing that comes in different colours going for 4 for $10.Walked up to centerpoint and then remembered.RAMEN TEN.Yeah always wanted to try it and then went to plaza sing....walked around then went hope via Dhoby Ghaut ->Punggol and took bus 3 cause i hate taking crowded buses and my legs was already giving way haha cause was standing 6 hrs straight....LOKI NEED A BETTER JOB....




Came up with two cool sigs.Thats right two.One is one of my masterpieces!.Really,i had to rebuild her hair,make her eyes more emotional and the windows...they were a killer and a first for me.The second one is one of my experimental sigs..just look at her eyes~
Watching the latest ep of kanon...makes me realised how much i wanted to learn how to dance^^.Yeah its sort of embrassing to learn haha.Its not that i want to be a pro...just that,its sort of cool to dance with a loved one under the light of the moonlight^^..yeah that dance the waltz...Snowing background.....
Kanon wowed me this time with mai in a really cool dress XD.she was soo cool in a pink dress and a sliver cross(acessory not religious).What really wowed was when she danced with Yuiichi.It was so fluid and like just WOW.I wanna dance with my loved one like that..........Makoto going off was sort of sad but by no means Air kind of sad.Atleast she can come back...
Tactics was funny..haha haruka with a bottle stuck to his finger....and he has one skill i call the women-catching headshot skill^^.
Still no new black lagoon or JSF....- -;;...impatient.....
MUST buy DJ max portable....its like DDR with fingers..how did i miss that game..god knows...my eyes...><....Seen MGS 4 and i was like cool....everyone is back..heck they even made raiden look more cooler haha.
Bought Chicken Karage set at Ramen ten and it was damm good.It was suppose to be crispy but by the time i reach home it was more of soft haha.Drank the green tea.....well i hate unsugared ones....so i just gulped it down and the soup was great...with tofu and seaweed bits...more like strands haha.Drank those two cause i figured it would be easier to bring home^^

Monday, December 18, 2006

Tidal

Rain comes pouring down on the two figures standing above a precariously perched rock which bottom is an infinite abyss to the underworld.Lighting streaked across the reddish copper sky thats filled with ruinic symbols which bore an eerie aura of doom...yes,it was not a good sign as the moon was black and the clouds was swirling with a soft roar.In the blackness of the moon,some radiance of the soft moon still managed to reach Earth,providing some light on the two figures.One was a man,holding a sword...his face was in awe and shock..eyes was souless...filled with the void of questions with no answer and sadness of betrayal that he did not come to expect..from her...ever...his grip on the sword was trembling and he could barely stand on his two feet.His cloak,covered his body from the rain was tattered and didnt resemble entirely as a cloak.The other was that of a girl,with radiant blood eyes ,her long blond silk like hair blowing in the gentle wind and shone in the faint moon light.Her sword stood steady in her grip.Her face was like any ordinary 16 year old,sweet,innocent and cute.But her eyes...they were filled with murderous and hatred.She was clad in a black suit with an arm plate over her left shoulder and a gaulet which held her sword.The man struggled to approach the girl...who seemingly..was his target.
"Why...why did it come to this....."he cried,as he slowly postioned himself.His sword clutched by his left was covered by his cloak with his right arm.The girl smile grew.Her eyes,glowed...almost welcoming and delighted at that gesture.
"Its because,you wouldnt give yourself to me,love...you didnt do a good job at giving me what i wanted".She replied simply.
"Then...so be it.......DIE WITCH!!!!"
He exerted all his strength to charge at the girl...the girl just stood there...laughing maniacally
~White flash~

Hmm pretty nice eh?yeah an amatuer story i came up with.Will continue it when i can come up with the next installment^^

Was tired the last two days so didnt even came online.On sat had the wedding waiter thing which was so exhausting cause SOMEONE didnt help me clean up - -;;....even the dudes at the washing area was wondering where are the others and that they notice that i was tired already.Well atleast got some cash out of it.Wanted to go to town town but ended up in Bugis.Haha fell asleep in the bus 76 and didnt realise that it past where i wanted to go off and that it was a loop service.Nice enough of the bride's family to give us glasses which was like a thank you -for-coming gift.Then yesterday went to ironically to a wedding reception at SPAN's in toa payoh which was bloody inaccessible by bus so had to take taxi.- -;;...these people obviously didnt think off people who dont hav cars...the food was alright and the hallway was too small for people and catering people to walk through the two doors.Imagine catering people with hot food and kids running around = you know what will happen.Anyway left that crazy party and went to Compass point and bought Farcry,interesting game.

No other topics cause he hasnt finished playing or watched any anime and Loki is still feeling the after effects of not sleeping a full 8 hours each day..- -;;

Beard papa cream puff is the best XD.Its like damm big and when you bite into it,the cream flows out and its not like the custard ones that you normally eat(its more to liquid not like soft custard core).

"who'se to say that you wont point your gun at your comrades,your neighbours,your family"Gene-MGS:PO(annoying knife wielding last boss with psychic voice)

Friday, December 15, 2006

Salute

Finally Holidays^^...but doesnt really mean holiday haha cause Loki got to find work to earn more muchy needed cash...so to me it just means no school^^.
Today soccer...hmm was alright i guess...managed to soccer 2 out of 3 attempts...one was a lob(which was seriously..not intended haha) another was in a penalty shoot out.Amazing thing was that Di actually scored...
Comm skill about 20++ people showed and the last few teams presented and amazing enough,Karina got best speaker award?!lol i thought it was either Farhan or Eugene...hmm and tomorrow Esmond will be enlisted for NS...
Tomorrow hav work and yet again in Ang Mo Kio...- -;;...i had originally planned to check out Han river @for a job but guess i do that on sunday.Maybe i drop by town town to check out that new cosplay cafe which opened recently i think.No i dont think i can eat there or afford for that matter but hey,its something new and worth checking out and no i dont really think girls in french maid outfits are cute^^;;...i prefer conservative clothes like a kimono or i dont know^^;;...That absolutely reminds me of something...I was flipping through a magazine at the M.A.G.E shop in east point when i saw this perfect cosplay or Aerith(Fav heroine ever)!.I was like....OMG..that sooooooo resembles her..the hair,the emerald eyes...even the entire face....I thought like wow must be really cool to know such a girl.Haha all this talk bout cosplay but i am not interested in it...too much work for me^^;;
Loki~
I hate the feeling of....purpose-less......I mean...i still havnt found what i am put on this Earth for.I though it was the promise...but it never happened....so yeah i hav nothing,know nothing and seems to hav nothing in his future.I see alot of people moving on to greater things and i am like...still standing still....unmoving and not mattering.....no matter what i do,it would be insignificant.....the guilt of dissapointing my parents i still feel...and it will never go away..I actually hate the normality of my life....its like here in singapore..its status-quo and make money,hav family etc....I really just want to go on a journey...something like Kino did....Actually i hav no right to talk about how unfortunate i feel cause God made it fair by making it so that i am still alive,healthy to a certain extent...and still hav my family and five senses.......while others are experience way harder life.....So..in a sense..its okay..i just got to...get over it
Anime~
WTF,central is showing the Getbackers?haha,about time they did.GFX wise...lol for some reason,been doing GFX on the girls from Shuffle!....my lil sis found this uber cute pic for Asa with long hair...and now in the process of extraction(i hate extraction).Yeah my GFX been slow and i been lazy...havnt watched any anime lately
Game~
Finally completed MGS:PO!...Phew i spent nearly 1hr just to defeat the last boss with just one medikit^^.I now know more bout MGS and understand why Big Boss went renegade.In a way Big Boss was not wrong.Loki salutes the Big Boss^^

Theres no real differenec between a lunatic and a hero...they both do crazy things-Solid Snake

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Futakomori

*Play semi-creepy music + images of the hell hotline crew & depictions of hell*
swaying,swaying the shadow of the dead.......
A pitiful fate
A lost path
Hating and the Hated
The Futakomori of the Cracked mirror
We come for the darkness through all time and will
release your hatred....

Haha pretty cool no^^
thats the beginning of the anime before the OP kicks in
I would include the OP lyrics but hell its hard to see the literal wordings- - ;;

Another post,Another day.Today got to be the most time wasted day ever...I actually came early for AC and found out the teach was out on course..- -;;...but required who came to stick around for self-revision....which no one actually did....haha everyone was doing their own thing.Arab was like being a 10 year old kid while the rest laughed.As for me...finally beat python on MGS:PO,yeah i was playing with my PSP...which i didnt save,inwhich someone switched off the psp which equals to.....i got to start back......way back...- -;;.Decided to drop by East point on the way back....so took the shuttle service with Rauf & Hakim...which was...awkward...cause Hakim was like"just now nazmi was like jealous of us or something?"& blah blah blah.Here's the thing.Rauf and Hakim are what you call good friends....on which most of the time Rauf act all...umm like Hakim was his GF that sort of thing^^;;,catch my drift?...and that sort of thing happen earlier and Nazmi,my "brothers" saw it and say"please lah limit it...like very sickening".And indeed it was sickeing..- -;;....IMO..i think Rauf maybe a bi...you know likes both guy and girl....i dont know so i dare not say...cause its like...only hakim is the target...and hakim is like...relenting all the time....argh..><...i feel sick just typing this...lets move on^^;;

One thing about hakim is that....he will always think he is right and if you try to correct him,then you're deemed wrong and no offence jokes could be like fuel for his grudges..- -;;..yeah i maybe on his hate list cause i make loads of wise cracks at him XD(lots of people too)...Anyway wont elaborate futher cause i dont like talk bad about people abeit,dont do what you dont want people do to you thing^^Damm...tomorrow is AC test and i havnt studied....><............Eugene was really enthusiastic about his RC club thing..haha would join but RC aint cheap..- -;;..and Eugene is spearheading it...no offence what so ever.Just 4 more days to holidays.....must hang in there.........................

As for the wedding waiter thing....thinking of quiting...sat maybe my last job....but...yeah i havnt found another so....dilemma..........

No G-e-n-e-r-a-l dicussion time this time..><...havnt though of anything major yet

Anime~
Kikuri is cute XD.She was chasing a dragonfly when it landed on the bald guy head and she said"Baldy!"then it landed on the shoulder of the lady and she said"Grandma!"haha it was so funny.Kanon has begun its sad moments...the truth about Makoto...its really like a fairy tale..wont elaborate,you got to watch to find out more.And where is Ayu Ayu...><
that reminds me...Black Lagoon,yeah Revy &Cutlass + modern day battousai &white scarbard = Pawnage.Cant wait for the next ep.Revy beats likes of Lara croft anyday..OH i remembered something...cant help to think the guy in the ep 6 is hider..yeah the guy who i tried to psycho him into actually telling this girl that he likes her but it backfired and dislike me in the end?yeah...this ep revolved around that sort of guy who just watches....I have this theory...if you like someone,tell him/her..doesnt mantter if it is returned or not,cause its like the right thing to do to tell someone that you like him/her...and plus you will never know...it might never hav worked before but a few years later,who knows...


Food~
Lol i keep buying old chang kee curry puffs almost every other day..XD...so nice.....MUST GET MORE!!!!!Its shell is flaky and semi cruncy and its filling is filled with steaming curry mixed potatoes,egg and meat goodness!XD...and Ramen ten...isnt available anywhere near my town area or neighbouring towns....its at town town(in other words orchard road)..i wonder if it lives up to its japanese theme....

Game~
Sold my need for speed Carbon for $35 bought it at $60 so it wasnt that bad and bought MGS:PO....not an easy game and people looking for light fun will be annoyed.I been a fan of the MGS series for a long time and havnt played MGS3:Snake eater...><.....cause no PS2...anyways its about Big Boss clearing his name and stopping FOX-HOUND from its ambitions.Big Boss was a the highest title given by a president and it sounds oh so freaking cool.The gameplay is different cause Big Boss can only hold 4 things and he needs people to help him out...not the standard MGS play...i dont exactly like this new thing but it grows on me...kinda tedious actually..i like stealth but micro managing isnt my thing..- -;;

Saturday, December 9, 2006

work




hey^^..almost rare for me to blog again.lol cause i am bored and i finished making my newest new sig^^.Its pretty simple in design although i must admit the sig size does not do justice to the render...oh well.I havnt watched Shuffle either so i dont know much about her

Anyways Rauf called me earlier,for a job.Seeing that i was free tomorrow,i accepted...and seeing that i am that damm broke..- -;;.I intiately wanted to quit like Jufree did but....yeah i am desperate for cash in a sense.My legs still alittle sore from playing soccer all day during PE yesterday.Haha it was funny in a way cause my keeper was getting pissed off cause the striker kept messing up all his attempts so much so he went out and became striker himself.As you know,i am not a good soccer player...but hey at least i try my hardest^^;;


Oh yeah that reminds me of something.Loki cant work well with another genius especially if he is one arrogant son of a gun.And Loki refuses to learn from him no matter how hard it will be for him.Masters dont learn from masters.Thats why i hate it when some people butt into in his work(like programming and such) and correct things without his consent - -;;.... dont get me wrong,its just that i take pride in what ever my work is.
3 laws of life that you must adhere when dealing with loki XD
1)thou shall not mess with his work
2)thou shall not mess with his ride(lol inactive when he buys a car XD)
3)thou shall not mess with his family(includes assistants,sisters and masters)

Managed to talk to Hitomo aka Maria today and she sounded...different...its like she is catious of what she say and the usual"lols,omg or XD" arent there anymore.Anyway her GFX is getting along fine...maybe could rival mine someday.To do GFX,you must hav vision and style.....haha i dont know,not exactly qualified to be saying that

General discussion time XD.Sometime i notice that guys look at some girls like they want to eat them up..- -;;.Then they would go"wow damm she is hot etc etc etc" and if i am lucky,they would spare me the details of what they dream of doing to that girl.What ever happen to decency.I mean cmon,keep this kind of things to yourself ><.I admit as a guy,i do think of that sort of things but i dont go shooting my mouth off.And its this kind guys who will go up to girls with umm attracitve for obvious sizeable reasons.lol i remeber a forum member once said this
"men,we women can dominate the world by just simply taking our clothes off."No wonder girls go to plastic surgery and such these days..they are afraid that they arent attracive enough....cant exactly entire blame guys...its the media and western culture influence mostly.Western culture brought about this idea of freedom.....so hence all the R-rated stuff came about.As for me...as i mentioned before,loki doesnt care about it^^.He is happy aslong as she is happy

wonder how does the Godiva chocolate at vivocity taste like.....must be really good.....

still no jigoku shojo futakomori.........- -;;...the eternal wait......

Friday, December 8, 2006

Futakomori

Finally able to write this thing out.Been tired and busy and nosy wont-go-to-sleep sis keep hovering around me when i am at the com^^;;.How should i start this..hmm
http://www.worldcybergames.com/poll/poll_game_2007.asp
Kay found out that PS3 is WAY too expensive...><.I mean you could buy two 360s with it....Plan to find a job during the 3 week holiday but currently hav no idea where to find that job.Also will be joining a Manga class next year.Yeah its something i like so i figured i try it out,who knows maybe i become a sucessful manga writer haha.It cost $110...again money....loki isnt made out of cash.And also plan to buy an SD card for my PSP so that i can finally upload songs and serve its purpose as an MP3 player aswell.

Life wise,well loki is same old,same old.Not very interesting ne?.Just my usual i still finding my place in this world and the void in my heart kind of thinking.Yeah i still dont know what to do after ITE.As for the void thing,yeah loki is lonely sometimes...its not the kind of thing friends can fill up.When he sees couple get together and do stuff,he wonders and thinks of stuff....especially when the guy is like not the most reliable kind of guy that will likely two-time the girl....Sa ne,the world is like that.Pretty tired of waiting too.If its waiting for something i cant see or see no reason for it,i will be very impatient.Lol yeah i am pretty short tempered and impatient.Runs in the family actually .

You know,its kinda rare to see girls these days dressed up in a simple flowy kind of dress or a sundress at that.Most of the time i see them in sleeveless tops or straps or miniskirts or minishorts or clothes that bares too much.I mean...dont you get cold???.call me weird but i kinda like clothes that doesnt show alot skin like a nice dress or blouse with an atleast knee-length skirt or put simply dress conservatively and not you got it,flaunt it kind of thing.
Haha and as for the guys...well...i just plain dont like guys who put on mascara around their eyes and make them look like raccons just cause they wanna look punk or whatever and put that together with long hair covering their eyes,you know like that singapore idol contestant paul twohill me thinks.

Where is my Jigoku Shojo Futakomori.......><....it isnt out yet in a while.Stuck at ep 5....must find out who is kikuri...possible successor of the hell girl trade.Black lagoon is slow too...><.....Kanon is starting to get to its main story,focusing more on Makoto so less Ayu ayu and her uguu~....nooooo...cause Ayu reminds me of Misuzu from Air....yeah and knowing that its created from the same company..i can pretty much guess that it will end up sad

Food^^.Yeah i live for food.The curry puffs at old chang kee is pretty good^^.Likes the curry and the black pepper ones.Hmm and at Polar cakes,their chicken pie is like....dammm.......XD.Its so good^^

Oh and Muse is the greatest live band ever