Swampped

This term is officially hell term for me as the learning curb has been kicked up a notched and i must atleast focus and study the stuff that i am learning as they are heavy as hell.I am starting to get scared that I am fall behind as even though I learn fast,technical stuff like maths,I take a longer time to fully understand.I do have second thoughts from time to time like I should have went to an engineering course instead of this one.It is hard and sometimes convicing yourself that you can do it wears you down.

My fridays are no longer free as CDS have taken its place and i am now down to two rest days.
My CDS is The Powerful Art of Storytelling,which alot of people seem to underestimate...- -;;
Frequent puns are "so the whole time are you just going to tell stories?"
Yeah fits me well as I am a human sound effect machine lol.

I would have to cut down on my lazy-ness i guess,its a hard habit to kick actually lol.I miss waking up at 3pm everyday and just lazy infront of the tv until night comes.

My aunt have decided to cut her losses and close down the stall in the coming months as they are taking in great losses each month.Its a pity though as its quite interesting to have someone you know in the food business.The main reasons the stall isnt making money is because
-Bad location,the stall is hidden at a corner
-Bad fengshui,the stall is beside the toliet
-Bad timing-they opened a few weeks before the fasting month so they couldnt make enough to tide them over
An alternative is that they operate in the morning while someone else operate at night.I just suggested they find a factory canteen.

Jufree asked some questions about the ps3 as he plans to buy one soon.Even though I own one,i didnt really tell him to go buy it as my taste is different from him.Right now the market is filled with FPSes which will entertain the normal user.I am just pissed at the lack of solid rpgs for the PS3.I have already lost faith in Square-enix as for the pass 4 years,all they did was milk the FF7 series..- -;;
What about threads of fate or brave fencer musashi?Those were the classics fans ACTUALLY
want to be remade or a sequel.

October is truly the magical month for anime as I found another gem.Kurozuka.I loved the first episode.Nice clean bloody fights and kuromitsu held her severed arm with her mouth and finishing off someone with the other was strangely gratifiying.The second episode was confusing as it didnt flow nicely and one couldnt tell which is a flashback.

Seethers are a nice band.Listen to fake it and rise above this truly hits home to those who have fallen from grace and is struggling to get back up.

head feels like water flowing like a wave on a sunday

I am still sort of sick when typing all this.

I did mean to go on saturday.But unfortunately I feel sick on friday onwards and its the weirdess sick kind of sick that I had.

Friday knight I feel weak so I took febs and went to sleep.Couldnt sleep the whole night.After the sleep effect of the pills wore off my head was like a radio station.

Before I go on,I got this weird sort of insommia.If I think alot before I sleep,my mind end up going on and on while my body sleep.They are like seperate entities so to speak.Its like my eyes are asleep and my body is still,yet I can still think lol.

The morning that I was suppose to go,my sister noticed my hands were hot and so was my forehead and neck.Funny thing was....it didnt felt hot to me.I touched my forehead a few times but it felt normal to me.Tried to get a thermometer.......but since the government has stop issuing free ones,cant get one.So i just doused my head with cold water which on me head....didnt feel very cold...lol.Anyways had to clean the house so loki soldiered on until mother called and got me to the doctor.

I think the doctor was at a loss lol.So he just gave me something for sorethroat,blocked nose and cant remember the other one.

I only went to sleep at 1am cause of other house work and someone came.
The next day,my throat feels like there are knives in them..- -;;

My holiday now is down to 7 days....which I dont want it to end cause I want to slack forever.The next term would be more evil and I just hope I got enough brains to pull it together and pull my gpa up slowly bit by bit.My gpa is 2.55,so if i do good the next term,it should be about 2.81 maybe?.Oh and that gpa isnt a good gpa - -;;.It was a miracle that I passed maths with a D+ grade.I guess the next term I got to study more and keep games/doujin/funny material at bay.

Oh and the parternal units have made up which is good.

Read a classmate's blog and he mentioned he isnt typing what he feels into his blog cause he knows if that person reads it,she would be hurt.

Hmmmmmmm,dont tell her you got a blog in the first place?(*crowds laugh*)

and how come my blog isnt on the class blog.Maybe its too haiku-ish for the normal person

What you read here is as real to what I feel and experience as it gets although I cant blog some stuff cause I dont know how to put it to words or too irrelevant to mention.
And no I still got no girl in my heart.



There was 1 anime that drew my attention by just looking at it.Thats Casshern Sins.
The op song is cool but the opening cinematics explain nothing lol.From what I gather,its a remake from the 70s version and is different from the live action movie version.Even saying his name is addicting.

Another one that I anticipated was toradora.I guessed it turned out good except its going way faster.They completed 11 chapters of the manga in 2 eps and they cut out the dance your way to the seat part.I hope for one thing though.That taiga and ryuuji dont end up with each other but their targeted pair instead.Cause if that happens,it would be way to cheesy and cliche for me.The way things are looking though,its doesnt bode well for me lol.


Seriously people,go watch the soup on youtube.For some reason singapore cant get that show on E! entertainment channel.He makes fun of other shows and the celebirty culture.

Again

Just when you thought things are getting better,the dude up there slams the brakes and your life grinds to a halt again.

This by far is the worst hari raya ever.Period.The first day,we didnt go anywhere.Parents are fighting again.Mostly cause of my father's indecisive-ness.The second day,well I thought my parents have made up but no.Because we(me,my sister and mother)forgot to ask for forgiveness before we left home,he was pulling a long face as we went out and didnt say anything.My mother got upset and went home half-way through....

- -;;

The next day,father proceeded to lecture me and question my religion etc....- -;;
Its not that I didnt want to ask for forgiveness,which was the tradition of hari raya.Its that the whole"not celebrate it thing" in the first place got me confused on what I should do and my parents fighting didnt help me.My father also apparently hasnt forgiven me over the driving incident as well.The weekends were very long for me as he was at home and it felt like a ticking time bomb.I cant even really sleep in peace.

I think I may have to accept the reality that my parents arent going to last long together.

Also got me thinking that if i got married one day,will i be like this?I certainly hope not.

Verdandi sent me a the yearly message of asking me to go on the yearly hari raya outing.I dont know how to respond to that exactly.

Havnt been online cause mother is sleeping outside and I am not comfortable using the com with someone beside me lol.

Someone please send me some girls or something cause I could use some company lol.